You Kill Me ( In A Good Way) *Kellic *

let me know that you will wait, and i will pay for my mistake

I opened the door, to reveal the tanned beauty that stood infront of me, i couldn't help but stare a little, the way he wore a muscle tee with a pair of shorts and a snapback so effortlessly, left my mouth ajared, though i was snapped out of my thoughts when he spoke 

"are you done checking me out or are you gonna let me in?" he said with a cheecky smile

i couldn't help but feel my cheeks heat up .. way too fucking goo quinn! 

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**VIC'S POV** 

He opened the door and there he stood looking ever so perfect, "stahp it vic keep your shit together"! i thought to myself and as i mentally punched myself for what i said next.

"are you done checking me out or are you gonna let me in?" 

he hid his face, but couldn't help but noticed the blush on his cheeks, omg i just want to grab him and kiss him right that sec---"stop vic! he's a married man with a kid, keep yourself together you came here to clear shit not cause more"  Dumb ass! i thought to myself

"come in, uhm make yourself at home, let me go grab cope for a sec cause i left her in her crib" he said as he went up the strairs.

I wasted no time sitting on the comfy leather sofa, not so long after kellin came in with cope. I swear cope was the girl version of kellin but blonde, she was so precious!, i mean of course she's kellin's .. not again 

"anyways how are you vic, haven't seen you since warped" 

"uhhh yeah, i'm alright, busy with the new record and stuff, how have you been doing with being captain daddynator"

that word stung a bit! it should've been our child, our house, my ring on his finger, but no i had to fuck up!..

"oh this little bean, she's perfect i swear, ain't that right coco'  he cooed to her

"oh want to hold her?" he smiled at me, i swear at that moment i felt my heart melt 

"uhm sure" i couldn't help but return a smile as i took cope in my hands, if she gets anymore adorable we might have trouble. she looked at me with those big blue eyes, which where similar to kellin's and what she said next had us both questioning our sanity

" daaaaaddaaaa --dadddaaa-daaaaa-daaaaa* she explained looking at me happily

i looked at kellin who's face was just as confused,..

"uhmmm well.... that was weird"  i managed to choke out

"yeah, anyways i think she's tired, let me put her to sleep and we head to studio?" 

"sounds good to me" i fleshed a smile and he returned one.. it honestly flattered my heart but i could still see the pain behind it which broke me to even think i've done this too him

Kellin came back shortly, and we headed to the studio built in his house, we sat there just jamming for a bit until i came forward with what i've been holding in for the past year and a half

"kells i'm soo sorry" and at that very moment i burst into a fits of sobs

"vic it's alright, i mean the past is the past no one can really change it now" 

"but i've cause you so much pain and--"

"shhhhh vic calm down"  he looked me in the eye and i swear i saw that shine that's been long missing " everything is gonna be ok, ok?"  i nodded slighty

"vic?"  i looked at him and our eyes locked, i swear i felt myself losing myself into them, but i held back as much as i could, no matter how badly i wanted him , i still respected the fact that he was married, and katelynne didn't deserve it.. 

"yeaah kells?"  i said looking at him once again. 

His face held confusion sadness doubt, i couldn't get pass what was going through his head

finally he spoke up 

"vic.. can I ... uhm.... try something....?"  

Despite the fact that i was baffled up and confused i still agreed

'uhmmm sure i guess?"  came out more like a question, but do you blame me? 

next thing i know he's slowly leaning in, stopping lightly brushing our lips together, i could feel his warm minty breath on my lips, but i had to fight it until he made the move, i don't want to wreck anything anymore!

"fuck it" -- he whispered against my lips and he pushed them against mine.

I was in complete shock and after a minute i managed  to kiss him back!, that kiss screamed longing and need, passion and love, we both kissed like it'll be the very last time, like our dear life deppended on it. I pulled away before this could go any further, instantly regreting my decision as i missed the feeling of his lips on mine, we both looked at each other trying to contemplate what just happened 

Finally kellin spoke up " just as i thought" 

I gave him a questioning look, but he looked at me with a saddened 

"Vic you .. need.. goo" ...  those words felt like a miollion daggers just stabbing me in the heart

"kellin please let's just talk" - i start sobbing " i just got you back i can't lose you again please just lets ta----"

"NO VIC PLEASE!, just leave"

I respected his whishes as once again he gave me an apologetic look, i made my way towards the turned, i turned to him and mouthed goodbye, but he stood there expressionless

what have i done! i now i shouldn't have kissed him back .. "you always have to screw up things don't you vic? just as i thought you're only worth to cause trouble" my inner thoughts said! i couldn't handle it anymore i needed to forget, as soon as i arrived at my door, i hurried in, and went straight to one of mikes cabinets, fiding a brand new bottle of Jack Daniels, i opened it and took a big gulpe out of it "red for the drinks that's mixed with suicide" i though to myself, i guess i mastered my own lyrics! i downed the rest of the bottle, and last thing i remember was passing out in mike's room on the floor and the sound of glass shattering everywhere, before everything went black!

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3rd update today? woooooow i'm on writer's steroids! 

Hope you'll enjoy it

and please tell me how i'm doing, this is my first ever fanfic and i'll like an opinion

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