The Do Over

01

My name is Elyiah Martin. I'm 16 years old and don't know much about love. Yet I have my own story. You see, I didn't mean to fall for the same person that broke my heart.

Repeatedly, I must admit. I honestly thought I was over him. Maybe I WAS truly over him at one point. And just maybe I knew the consequences of my actions. Of me falling for him all over again. Now before you judge, hear me out. Let me start from the beginning...

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"You're talking to GAVIN?? Gavin Morono??"
My best friend Keyana corners me in the middle of the hallway, moving her dark long hair out of her eyes, which are wide with curiosity.
"SINCE WHEN!!"
She says clapping her hands with delight.

Keyana Johnson is my best friend. She has been since the 6th grade. For the past 4 years she has been my best advice giver and secrets holder. She has long dark brown hair and her skin is the perfect color. She's short and small but that's not to be taken for granted. She's the best catcher on our schools softball team and has a powerful arm. Which comes in useful when someone needs to be whipped into shape. She's a lover of all things Harry Potter and hates anything that stereotypes females. She's not afraid to be a bitch when she needs to and well, I respect that. When it comes to guys though, she breaks her powerful woman character. They make her all giddy and she can sometimes get carried away. Although she can go a little crazy, she's my favorite and I love her.

"SHHHH!" I say covering Keyana's face with my hand. I do a 180 to see if anyone was around to hear.
Thankfully everyone was filing into classes down the hall
"I thought I told you not to make a big deal when I told you!" I say punching her arm playfully.
"How could I not?? You just spilled the biggest tea of ALL. TIME."
I laugh to myself as I watch my friend jump up and down with excitement.
"No no no, we are not talking like that. We just had one real and amazing conv-"

"We are just friends, you hear me? No running around telling everyone. And besides he has a girlfriend. Maddison, right? He's in a happy relationship."
The smile on my face droops down to a small frown. I need to get a hold of myself. I mean we just became friends, I need to get a grip.

"What? Honey, no. They broke up a couple weeks ago. Yea, turns out Maddison's a cheater. She broke his little heart. Poor dudes still attached"
Keyana says shrugging her shoulders.

It makes so much since now.
Last night Gavin asked me who I liked. No big deal. I said no one because well that was the truth. I asked him the same thing. His answer? Maddison of course. Why wouldn't it be. The answer made me feel stupid because I thought they were still dating.
Turns out he still has feelings but they are over. He's single now.

I feel the smile come back.-
I shove it off and play it cool. I can't let Keyana know I like him yet. Yeah yeah I know, she's my best friend. But I don't even know for myself if I like him. We just started talking yesterday. As friends. I mean I've never had a boyfriend so what do I know about love? Or even like? High school boys are so immature they're hard to fall for.

It's not like we've known each other for years. Well we've gone to the same school since I moved to Virginia High my 6th grade year. But we've never even talked in person. I didn't even know he knew I existed til I saw his name pop up on my notifications when he added me on Snapchat a couple months ago.

Yea we were in similar friend groups but never did I think we could be friends. Although I move around all over groups and he's usually stuck with the jocks but also sneaks himself into the nerd group once in a while where, thinking about it, I think he enjoys more.
After last night, I feel close to Gavin. Like I've known him forever.

As Keyana and I walk to 1st together, I wonder. How will I make conversation with Gavin in person? What if he doesn't want to talk to me? Wait but I don't know if I like Gavin at all. Do I? I need to stop thinking about this so hard. Of course I do. I MEAN DONT!...