For The Love Of A Curvy Girl

I Will Always Be Fat!!

"Marissa can you go into the back and grab me a size 13 in this dress for Miss. Black please?" I asked my best friend a co-owner of ' A&M Fashions'.

"Sure" and she smiles and walks away.

"Is there anything else that I can get for you Miss. Black while you are waiting?" I was hoping she would say no, but knowing Miss. Black she would say yes. See, she comes in here every single week to buy stuff but usually the next day she's bringing it back saying that doesn't like it.

"No, I think that this is all I need this week. My dear husband said that I need to cut back on all the shopping that I do" I says and I just hold in what I want to say and just smile at her. And she just turns and walks over to the fitting rooms where Marissa is waiting for her.

Finally 20 minutes late she left and we can close up the shop for lunch. It's probably sad to say but lunch was one of my favorite times of the day. We would always go out to someplace to get lunch. But as it was my favorite it was something that I hate. I love food, I can't help it. But I hate my size, I hate the way I look, and most importantly I hate me. You're probably thinking why would you say something like that but I can't help what I think and feel. You see I'm not skinny. In fact I am fat from being skinny. See I weigh 195 pounds and I hate it. As do most other people when they see me. On the outside I might look like a person who loves them self and loves there curves and body but it's all an act. Everyday I go home a cry and cry over the fact that I will be forever alone and never fall I'm love. No one wants to be with me. I mean at 25 I'm still haven't had a boyfriend or my first kiss. So yes that means I'm still a virgin. I might act like I don't care but I really do. Every girl wants to fall in love and be kissed and get married and have a family. But it doesn't look like that's gonna happen to me.

"Amelia where should we eat for lunch?" Marissa asked me and I just shrugged my shoulders.

"It doesn't bother me M." She just nods.

" How about we try that Chinese place on 5th ave." And my mouth just starts to water at the thought of that place. What can I say, your girls loves food.

"Sounds good to me, let me just grab my purse then we can go." So I just walk fast into the back and grab my purse and I quick check my hair to make sure it was all in place then I walk back out to meet Marissa.

At the Chinese place!

Marissa and I were sitting at our table waiting for our waiter to come over and take our order when some skinny bitch walks over and sits down at the table next to is and starts mooing.

"Mooooooo......Mooooo" and people were starting to laugh. And Marissa being herself looks at me then at the chick. And the words that come out if et mouth are the reason why we have been best friends all these years.

"What the hell is your problem. Who do you think you are mooing at us. Unless you have a death wish or something then I would advise you to. Shut the hell up before I punch you in your damn face." As soon as she said that the whole place went quiet. I didn't know what to say so I just picked up my purse and ran out of there.

I ended up at my mom and dad's house. After leaving the Chinese place I walked back to work and jumped into my car and left. I knew that the only person that was going to cheer me up was my daddy. No matter what other people might say about my weight he always said that I was fine the way I was.

"Mom, Dad?" I yelled out as I walked into there house. I walked into the kitchen and saw my mom sitting on the stool next to the island. She was on the phone so she didn't notice I was here. So I walked over and grabbed a cup out of the cabinet and poured a glass of water.

"What the hell is your far ass doing here?" My mom asked after she hung up the phone. Yep, that's my mother for you. She's not what you would think a mother would be like. Well actually she's only like this to me. My mom never talked to my brother and sister like that. It's only me. She's never really liked me. In fact I don't even think she's ever told me that she loves me. Every time I tell her that I love her she just nods her head or acts like she didn't hear me.

"Nice to see you too mother. I had a bad day so I came here. Some lady thought it would be funny to mooo at me while I was about to eat my lunch." I told her and she just laughs.

"Well maybe you should look at yourself. I've been telling you all your life that your fat. Now strangers are telling you that your fat. You will never learn. " my mother says and walks out of the kitchen.

I guess I was right. I will never ever be skinny. I will always be fat!

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Well there the first chapter. What do you think. If you really liked it then maybe you could hit the vote button for me.

I'm hoping to update at least once a week. But school is starting up in 2 weeks so I don't know how ofter I will be able to update. But we shall see.

---------------------------------------------------> Pick over there is of Amelia! She is so beautiful!!!

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