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why? idek

So this part is about how I started being a writer on Wattpad. Like I had mentioned at the previous chapter, I created Wattpad account because of someone. I wanted to read her works.

A lot of people encourage me, to be honest. I started writing in an exercise book, then in 2014 I began to write short stories on Facebook (you can read the stories in one of my works titled 'EXO & BTS Short Stories')

After that, I saw my cousin posting her fanfics at WeChat moments so I kinda followed her? Then in 2015 I started publishing my fanfiction for the first time in Wattpad (but I deleted the fanfic a year later because of my sister lol). I stopped posting my fanfics at WeChat moments because of my friend. I was such an attention seeker back then (I am still like that but not as much as I'm getting older).

Back then, I unpublished my works because of plagiarism issue (someone even DM-ed me because of that) but nowadays, if any of you noticed, I unpublished some of my completed works, the reason is actually because they turned out to be not like what I expected them to be (in other words, I was not satisfied with the overall stories). I still have some copycat issue to be honest, but I decided not to care anymore. As you know, I have someone who supports me.

Of course, I published my stories because I want to get some attention (that is why I write Wolf & Beauty in English and not Malay). I do get down, but I don't give up that easily. There were people who actually read my absurd works and I was happy.

One thing about me - if I wanna stop being a copycat, I would delete all my works, but I don't. I only deleted some of them. Ones that went off too far from the supposed plot.

I feel unmotivated all the time. I am alone. I don't have anyone to support me, only myself. But it doesn't mean that I should stop writing. Why am I writing in the first place? Read my bio.

Every writer has their own writing rules, so am I.

I've been writing since I was 7. Now I'm 23.

16 years, so fucking long. I've been in Wattpad for more than 4 years now.

I started by using my ex-crush as the main character, then, I changed to using Korean celebrities after I became a K-popper when I was 15.

Why am I even typing this part in English though.

I am being selfish.

-to end or not to end-