Ruby and Gold

~{Chapter 1} A Love Never Lost~

Her ginger curls tread across the other's large, bare breasts.
She controls the movements of the typical dominatrix.
"I fucking hate you."
"I hate you more."
"Yet we're still fucking."
"Yeah, because you're fucking hot."
The ginger feels at this point, she is being used by her ex girlfriend. But instead of ending intercourse, she decides to belittle her.
"You just hate that I'm controlling you and you're actually enjoying it."
"I know it's sad...probably because I'm desperate and lonely."
"How romantic."
"Shut up."
"Well maybe if you weren't so cold, you wouldn't feel that way and instead of us having animosity towards each other, we could still be in love."
"Again shut up, you're talking too much."
Before she can speak another word, her ex girlfriend flicks her tongue in her mouth and precedes into a messy excuse for a french kiss. The ginger always found her ex girlfriend to be a subpar kisser, but still secretly being in love with her, she does not really care. When she was told to shut up about her bringing up the topic of her bitterness and lost love, she knew she did not want her to speak of it because this is purely the truth. Her ex girlfriend likes to keep everything to herself and bottle it all up until, she cannot take holding things back anymore. She knew that if she still loves her, she'll eventually spit it out. She still awaits for the moment of her ex girlfriend will proclaim her love, desperately, everyday. As she takes in all these thoughts, her lost love lowers her lips below her chest, until she reaches her intimately. The ginger knows she cannot keep doing this. If she does not have love to give in return, her inner being will be destroyed. She begins to eat her out. It is quite a double entendre, that her ex girlfriend eats her physically and emotionally. This disturbs her, but she still has faith that her love is not lost. Once she finishes, she came back to the top of the bed and cuddles with the ginger. This surprises her because normally, they only display affection during sex or a make out session.
"Who cuddles with someone they hate? The devil?"
"I don't hate you."
"Wait what?", a confused expression appears on her face.
"I lied because really, I hate myself."
"Then how do you really feel about me."
She hesitates and takes the ginger's hand and sighs.
"I...I..-"
"What!?"
"I still love you..."
Filled with surprise, the ginger does not actually expect her ex girlfriend to still love her. But evidently, she does love her. She smiles.
"Really?"
"I do. Ruby I can't get over you. I just can't. You're amazing, too good for me. You deserve so much more than someone as pathetic as me." A tear starts to formulate in the edge of her eye.
"Don't ever say that." Ruby takes both of her hands and puts pressure upon them.
"You are not pathetic Astrid, you're just oblivious of how to display your emotions and it's okay because deep inside, I can see you. You're beautiful. You just need to bloom, love." Tears come to Ruby's eyes.
Astrid starts breaking down crying.
"How could you say that? How the fuck could you say that? You're so pure and lovely! I'm a selfish monster! I thought I was a sociopath until I met you, causing me to feel more than I thought I could handle. I was afraid. So I absorbed all I could out of you and broke your heart. And I hate myself for it. I'm horrible. I'm toxic for you, Rubs. You shouldn't even be near me."
"No! No! Noooo! That's a lie and you did that because you were afraid, not because you're horrible! Your feelings for me were foreign to you. I understand everything now and everything I had against you, has left me. I love you Astrid and that's not going to change."
"But-"
"Shut up, love."
Ruby starts to kiss Astrid intensity. Astrid stops restraining and lets Ruby take over. Ruby, being a astronomically better kisser than Astrid, completely satisfies her. Astrid never gets to truly experience how godly of a kisser Ruby is because Astrid, always takes control. Until now... well, at least for the meantime. Ruby runs her fingers through Astrid's golden hair. The kiss softens and begins to end. They stare into each other's eyes enchantingly.
Astrid becomes mesmerized by Ruby's eyes, that resemble the ground of the Earth. Ruby admires Astrid's eyes, that look of the ocean on a clear day.
"You're beautiful."
They say this simultaneously and then giggle lightly. They grow tiresome and eventually fall asleep in each other's arms.