Secrets

Chapter 50

The rest of the night Louis and I didn't do much. We laid in bed, watching some movies till I fell asleep. It felt nice going to sleep in his arms. It just sucks knowing that we have to leave here tomorrow. I feel like I should come up with something like this for us. I mean I want to make this up to him. I know that he had this all planned out and I feel like I kind of ruined this. I should have just left it be till we were back home. It is something that we need to deal with at some point.

I woke up to Louis kissing me. I smiled into the kiss, moving my lips against his. His lips were so gentle against mine. He pulled away before I wanted him to. Honestly it's kind of nice being woke up like this by him. I know that he's not upset about this weekend. If he was he wouldn't have woke me up like this. He smiled, "Good morning, beautiful."

I smiled back, "Good morning."

I felt his arms tighten around me, holding me closer to him. He kissed the top of my head, "I love waking up with you in my arms."

I can't help but smile, "I just love being with you."

He softly pecked my lips as we just laid there for awhile. It's so peaceful being with him like this. I could just stay with him like this all day. It sucks knowing that we have to leave today. This week I need to come up with something to make this all up to him. I want to surprise him with something. I'm not even sure what I'm going to do yet. I know I'll eventually figure it out. I sighed, "We need to get up."

He groaned, "I know, baby. I don't really want to though."

"Me either but we need to go home today."

"I know. Let's get dressed and I'll take our bags out to the car then we can go out for breakfast before we go home."

"Okay."

I started to get up when I felt his arms tighten around me, "Can I please have a kiss before we get up?"

I can't help but smile, "Yes."

I moved up, kissing him like he did to wake me up. His lips were just as soft against mine like they were earlier. I moved my hands up, running my fingers through his hair. I felt him move his hands down to my hips, pulling me over so that I was straddling him. He ran his tongue over my bottom lip and I let him have entrance. I felt him grab the bottom of his shirt that I was wearing. He started pulling it before I pulled away from the kiss, looking at him confused. He was the one to say it wasn't the time for this last night. I don't get why he's doing this right now. He pecked my lips, "I need you, baby."

''We can't do this right now."

"Please. I know you say how you feel like you're the only one that ever wants to do anything but right now I need you."

I do want to do this but I don't think we should do this right now. He was right last night. Right now isn't the time for this. We still have things we need to talk about. I pecked his lips, "Louis, I love you but we shouldn't do this right now. We still have things to talk about."

"I know you're right. I'm scared about something though."

I looked at him confused, "What would that be?"

"I'm scared that you might leave me after I tell you about my past."

I can't believe he thinks that. I honestly can't see myself without him. I thought he knew that. I put my hand on his cheek, caressing it with my thumb, "Louis, please don't think that. I have no reason to leave you. I honestly can't even see myself without you. I do want to know about your past and I won't think anything different about you after you tell me. I love you. Please don't think I'm just going to leave you."