okay so like, this is a rant. and quite honestly, if you don't take my side on this i wouldn't blame you dvajshsjsh, i did something bad kinda and i just dbbshsjs gotta get it out yk? sorry in advance
this summer, my life was kinda shit. obviously i'm not gonna go into great detail or anything because i don't wanna send myself into a depressive spiral once again, so anyway this summer sucked
when school started, there was this friend that i just stopped talking to. she didn't do anything, but she did know about the whole ellie thing, and as odd as it sounds, i think that's why i stopped talking to her
i know how bad that sounds, and i'm not gonna try and make it seem like it's not bad, because it is. it was a bad thing to do, especially since i'm the one who told her about ellie in the first place
it's just, i think talking to her just reminds me of ellie? and yeah, i am getting more over ellie as i move along like, in time, but the thing is that i only ever told her the bad things about ellie
and i think that's why i can't talk to her. because i can only be reminded of the bad things that really hurt me
i'm not gonna make the excuse that i'm not in the wrong and she is, because i most definitely am. i just wanted to say this for whenever i feel like shit, which honestly, it'll probably make me feel worse then, but at least what i'm saying is true, right?
okay,, that's all. just wanted to say that.
ight, bye !
update: i told her. curse the show 'the good place' because i just finished season two and yall,,, the moment i finished the last ep of s2 i was instantly like "i wanna be a good person" and so, i told her and we worked it out.
i'm actually like , kinda proud of myself. what is this feeling BDNSBSNSBSJ
update pt. 2: not rly an update but stan the boyz thanks 😘 !!
