Here I am one again
All I do is make mistakes and you call me your friend
You say that you need me and I dont know why
Through My eyes there only lie. I try and try to believe your words , but the truth disappears as lies fill my head. Anxiety oh anxiety dont ever come back another day you ruin my life in every way. Last night I did something I could never forget oh I was silly to do it now i weap and cry knowing what I am.doing is part of my addiction growing and I knew it. No matter how hard you fight with all your might it still feels like you are falling in a deep hole with no escape or anywhere to go, hoping that and waiting one day these habits will break and you can become better and ready for in our life. maybe one day this pain will go awway but rn I am sad ,stupid are the voices my head hears cause of what I did. She was so self conscious ,did almost everything to fit in . She never talked try to be the perfect doll. Selfish you may call her! If only anyone knew what she done last night. If the knee they woud judge her call her more ugly names wall she looked at the ground in shame putting a bad word in here name( runing family reputation) but she refuses to.let what happend slip she keeps it bottled inside and will until she dies. Crys day And night but hey it better then telling them then looking into those people judgemental eyes
