Why? (Sequel to if only)

Part2

I look at her and she's in tears "it's beautiful becs" she says with tears streaming down her face "and so will this one" I say while pointing to her huge stomach "I love you bear" I said and give her a kiss on the head "I'd love to stay longer but I've got to go" I say "ok I'll see you for when this little fucker wants to get out of me?" She said hopefully while pointing down at her stomach,all of a sudden I feel really guilty because I haven't told her or Jesse that I can't be there because I'm going to be in tour "ok reg please believe me when I say this,I really want to be there when she decided to say hello but I can't,and I've tried to fucking hard to fight the battle of staying home but I can't I have to go on tour" I said and wait for a response "I'm super sorry" I said and give her a hug "as soon as I'm back this is my first stop" I says and give her another kiss I the top of her head "I'll miss you like crazy,keep me updated though" I say as I walk out the door,as I get in my car tears just pour out,I didn't want anyone to see my but it's just my luck and jess pulls up in front of me "b whats wrong?" I ask and he's already opened my door "umm you might want to go in there,just know that I'm really sorry and that I tried so fucking hard" I say and start up my car closing the door "goodbye Jesse" I say and drive off home.

2 months later
Regans pov
"Jesse" I scream and he comes racing up,I hold my stomach as the pain gets increasingly worse "ahhh" I shouts and Jesse bursts open the door "Jesse my wateraaaah!" I yell "it broke" I say while panicking "come on let's get you to the car" he said and helps me doesn't he stairs and into the car "Jesse please hurry up it hurts" I shout. We arrive at the hospital and I'm currently in the room where you give birth (fuck knows what it's called)
"Baby, I can't do it" I say to Jesse as I hold his hand in mine "yes you can,I can already see the top of their head,come on" I give it one last push and I hear a cry "congratulations it's a girl" the midwife says and hands the baby off to the doctor to clean her and weigh her "congrats she's all healthy,she weights 8 pounds and 7 ounces" the doctor says while handing Jesse the baby "I can't take her" he said and I thought he was just scared of dropping her so I asked why,he showed me his hand and it looked really messed up "oh my god baby I'm so sorry I did that to you" I say while taking the baby from the doctor so she could go and get his hand sorted.after a while Jesse called everyone and there all down here,I texted beca and she said congrats and asked for pictures.ive been in here all day and I have to stay over night because there was a little complication,but a doctor came in and asked if I would like one more visitor before visiting hours stopped,I racked my brain as to who it could be but every one apart from beca came,she couldn't because she was currently in the other side of America doing a gig,any way I said yes to the doctor and he scruffiest off to say the the visitor that they could come and see me,I was playing with my baby girl when I heard a knock a the door "come in" i say and In comes.....beca "oh beca" I squeal, she walks over and hands me a box "swaps?" I asked and she took the baby and I took the box,I opened it and inside was a baby onesie with a small bear on it "oh beca that's so cute" I said and placed the box to the side before taking the baby back "so what's her name?" Beca asked while ticketing her feet "brodie Alicia Mitchell-Swanson" I say and tears glass over her eyes "you....my....middle name" she asked while pointing to herself and I nodded "you mean so much to me" I say and she pulls me in for a hug,still being carful if the baby,and kisses my head "beca" I heard Jesse "no it's my nan!" She said sarcastically while walking over to Jesse and giving him a hug "I  thought you were on tour" she looked down with a shrug "well regan texted me saying that she had the baby then sent me a picture,I was practically dying that I couldn't see her...soikindacancelledmyshow" she blurted out the last bit "I'm sorry that kinda sounded like you cancelled your show" I said and she gave me a big smile "oh beca" I said and motioned for a hug "it's not a big deal everyone got refunds" she said.she ended up staying for a while before she said she was going to go and see everyone else before she had to fly back tomorrow.