The Alphas' Brother

Chapter 9

< I'm no help either in our healing. I have trust issues that I'm still coming to terms with, I don't even fully trust our mates and it kills me knowing that I haven't rested properly since getting here. I haven't trusted anyone since Roger. It sucks because every time you play with our parents or our brothers or even try to make friends with the pack I can't help but be envious of your bravery after everything we went through but also be on guard in case I have to jump in and protect you..> Odele trails off when I sniffle loudly.

 "What took you so long to tell me Odele? If you haven't been relaxed or resting I would not have gone straight in to the room with them. I'm sure they would've given us our own space if I had asked." I cry softly wiping my tears away. Odele whimpers at the sound of my sadness and pushes against my mind to comfort me.

   <I'm weak. Damaged beyond helping. I can't forgive those who have hurt us and it's eating at me. You are my human, my soul-partner. Yes we have mates but I'm with you. I've been with you since you were just a thought and knowing that I'm the cause of your suffering hurts me more than anything. I feel horrible that I didn't protect you from Reagan. I knew for a long time that he was a threat and that he was dangerous but I always put it off but the time had came and I froze. I hide away instead doing what I always did. What I should have done. I hate that the goddess stuck you with such a horrible excuse for a soul-wolf. I've failed you so many times and I hate myself for it.> 

  I had no Idea that he felt this way. I had never blamed him for any of the things that had happened. I just kind of accepted it as something the goddess wanted. Whether for good or bad I knew no matter what it was just something that was meant to happen.

"Odele I never blamed you for anything. I can't even think of putting any of the blame on you. It isn't your fault at all." I urge with a sniff

<Y-You don't blame me?> Odele asks questioningly almost sounding as if he expected me to blame him.

 I shake my head quickly and wipe away the extra tears that began to build up in my eyes, "N-No. I saw you as my protector. You were my rock Odele. I love you so much and knowing that you felt this way all these years makes me feel like an ass for that checking in on you. I should've known that it wasn't non-affecting events. I'm so sorry." I sob

<Don't be, Shy.> And that was the last thing Odele said to me before closing our link.  

"Odele?"

"Rhhhhhhhiiiiivvvvveeerrrrrr!" A loud voice screeches snatching me out of my day dream and I come face to face with my daddy.

   I bark happily tail wagging furiously when he bends down and rubs my head. I lick his face and whine happily as he giggles. 

"What are you doing out here pup? We've been looking everywhere for you." Papa asks as he comes around daddy and squats down next to me. I sit up on my hunches and lick Papa'a face since my wolf has grown I am now the size of a normal teen wolf meaning I come face to face with my papa in his human form. 

  He chuckles softly before wiping away my slober, "Yea I love you too, now what are you doing out here alone? How long have you been out here young man, You know you are not suppose to be out alone when you're outside of pack territory." He chastises with a raised brow. I look down before shifting in to my human form casually sitting crisscross applesauce while looking up at my parents. They are a good looking couple. Anyone who's smart can definitely tell that my daddy is the receiver in the relationship. He has a small build just like me almost looks impossible that he could've carried triplets.

   " Welllll papa, my handsome father and beautiful daddy.. I woke up around two or so and I couldn't go back to sleep and I found this place a little less than a week ago so I decided to come here and I just sat here in wolf form so I could relax. I know I'm not suppose to leave the house without a guard but I felt that it would be rude to wake someone up just because I couldn't sleep." I answer with a smile