Sotus/ Sotus S the Series - Novel (Translated)

Missing You (1-1)

..... P'Arthit is busy.

Kongpob knows that P'Arthit is already in his fourth year, and his school workload has increased along with his school credits. In addition, he also has an internship component, as well as a graduation thesis to write. They used to meet infrequently in the past, but now he has almost as good as vanished, despite his dormitory being just opposite his own.

Actually, he could just give a call to look for P'Arthit, but he didn't want to keep on calling and being a nuisance, the main reason being that he didn't want to bother Arthit, and the second reason... He didn't want to be labelled as a fickle-minded child.

If he were to use the excuse "I'm calling you just because I want to hear your voice", without any proper reason, it is a rather annoying reason in P'Arthit's eyes; if he said it, P'Arthit might get angry.

"The more you love, the more you care."

Kongpob finally understood the meaning of that statement. He has fallen for someone older than him, and this person is someone who cares alot about his dignity, so he hopes that he can be a more reliable person himself. He hopes that P'Arthit would feel he is more mature and more qualified to stand beside him.

Also because of this reason, he always reminded himself, it's okay even if they haven't met for almost a month, he would hang out with M and the gang as usual for meals, and rent a movie to watch in the evening. When the sky is dark, he would stand at the balcony, gazing across at the dormitory that has its lights turned off.

Nowadays, P'Arthit would go to P'Knot's dormitory to stay over, as they had to write their graduation thesis together. The last phone call was a week ago, and he heard P'Arthit saying that he was going to stay at Amphawa (a province at the northwest Bangkok) for a few days, as he wanted to visit the factory he would be doing his internship at and collect some information, to be used for his thesis.

That day before hanging up the call, he had heard P'Knot in the background noisily trying to find reference books.

...... P'Arthit is busy, he knows......
He understands.

Despite knowing, Kongpob couldn't help but buy a certain someone's favourite meal combo, a cup of pink milk and pad kra pao gai (basil chicken rice) with a poached egg on top, back to the dorm to eat. Then he would turn on the television, if not the room would be too quiet. However, he couldn't help but look towards the balcony, and this made him notice that it has started to drizzle outside.

Every time it rains, Kongpob would always take note of the dorm opposite of his, whether there are clothes drying outside, and then he would make a call to P'Arthit to get him to quickly bring in his clothes, because P'Arthit likes to hang out his clothes to dry at night. The moment P'Arthit receives his call, he would immediately dash outside to bring in his clothes, then he would complain loudly, as if he was blaming the gods.

It is because of this behaviour of P'Arthit, that makes Kongpob laugh due to its cuteness, even though he gets a scolding for it after that, saying that he is obtaining happiness from others' misery. He would have to spend a long time apologizing and consoling P'Arthit, before he could simmer the latter's anger.

Thinking about those times, and looking at the rain falling outside the window... There is no clothes at the opposite dorm balcony for him to need to call anybody. There is no angry, annoyed expression for him to chuckle about. There is no ex-hazer's reprimanding voice.

...... It all feels rather dead now, lifeless and heavy.

There is a feeling in his heart that made him so depressed that he almost couldn't take it anymore. Kongpob tore his eyes away from the balcony, returning back to his room, grabbed his keys, switched off the light, locked the door and took the lift downstairs.

Walking along the rainy street at 9PM at night, he found himself at the next-door building. He was lucky that someone happened to walk out at that moment, so he didn't need to use anybody's pass to scan in, and he could go inside and take the lift. In no time, he would be able to reach unit 618 on the 6th floor.

As far as he knew, the lock should be hanging on the door handle. Kongpob silently chided himself, are you crazy? Why did you come all the way here? If you get caught by P'Arthit, what would he think? He would definitely be called a naughty kid who can't grow up, no patience, who only knows how to do unnecessary things all day...... Wait.

Is he expecting a miracle to happen? That was why he came all the way here in hopes that he would meet a certain someone he was dying to meet...

"Kongpob!"