Fucking Idiot

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Edward's POV

It's been a week since May and I talked I can hear her every night sa room niya crying and I'm so devastated that this is happening. Right now, she's probably rehearsing with Noah and I can't help but feel jealous.

May kumatok sa kwarto ko at pagbukas ko sinalubong ako ng suntok ng kapatid niya.

"YOU HURT HER"

Pinabayaan ko siyang suntukin ako.

"Bakit hindi ka lumalaban ha? ganyan mo ba hindi kamahal si May. Pagkatapos mo siya habul habulin di mo naman pala kaya panindigan yang nararamdaman mo. Hindi mo naman pala siya mahal"

Pagkarinig ko ng "hindi mo naman pala siya mahal" tinulak ko ang kapatid niya.

"Don't you ever tell me that I don't love her! I fucking love her with all my hear but you don't know happened why I'm so fucking afraid to commit"

"Edi iexplain mo hindi yung bigla mo nalang sasaktan yung kapatid ko. I trusted you! I fucking trusted you!"

"Do you think gusto ko tong nangyayare?! Pagktapos ko antayin siya ng tatlong taon mangayayre tong kinakatakutan ko? Feelings ko ang kalaban ko hindi tao. Akala mo ba napakadali labanan ng feelings at ng past"

"Sige nga kung hindi mo kaya sabihin kay may. Sabihin mo sakin! Bestfriend moko maiintindihan ko at baka patawarin pa kita!"

tinignan ko siya ng matagal iniisip ko kung mapagkakatiwalaan ko siya. pero ang lumabas lang ay luha hanggang sa umiyak ako.

Dale's POV

He cried. He fucking cried. Shit. This gotto be something. Hindi ko nakikitang umiyak si Edward kahit gaano pa siya nahihirapan.

Kaya naman tinabihan ko siya. at siniko ng mahina.

"Bro, we're bestfriends. As your bestfriend, irerespeto ko ang sikreto mo hindi ko sasabihin kay May but at one point kailangan mo kong kausapin at ilabas yang nararamdaman mo."

Huminga siya ng malalim.

"I stopped singing because my parents divorced and that's when shit started happening. You were a witness sa lahat ng downfall ko nung taong yun. I havent had a chance to thank you for saving me but if its commitment that i'm scared of its because of my parents"

"what really happened Edward? It's been two years since that downfall. I know it aint pretty but I didnt ask you kasi alam kong ayaw mo mapagusapan pero i dont think keeping it to yourself is healthy"

"When my parents divorced I was given a choice to live with one parent and obviously I chose my mom because she's sick. Yun naman talaga yung reason bakit sila nagdivorce kasi di na nila kaya yung mga problema na dinadala nila. So, when I chose my mom my dad got so angry. You knew na super idol ko siya pagdating sa pagkanta at nung sinabi niya na Kahit kailan di ako magkakacareer sa kanta dahil wala siyang anak simula ngayon kaya wag daw ako associate sakanya. Nung gabi na yun I went to the bar and I got into a super big fight."


"Oh God, eto yung naospital ka sa throat mo"

"kasi sinuntok  ako sa throat nung kaaway ko. Sa totoo lang gumaling naman pero nung araw na yun para bang iba yung dating sakin. Para bang pagsuntok sakin tumatak sa utak ko na itago mo na yang boses mo dahil hindi ka aasenso sinabi na mismo ng tatay mo. Kaya simula nun di na ako kumanta kasi naalala ko yung mga sinabi ng tatay ko"

"Diba umuuwi ka pa din sainyo dati kasi di pa finalized yung divorce?"

"So, Yun na nga. Naging violent ang tatay ko sinasaktan niya si mama at umabot sa point na linabanan ko siya nasuntok ko siya at umalis siya ng bahay at sinabi niya na kahit kailangan di niya tatanggapin na kapamilya niya kami especially ako."

"Ang lala"

"I was a witness of how much they loved one another and for it to fall apart like that makes me question relationships"

"and your sister"

"My sister, you knew what happened she passed away that year because she happened to commit suicide because her boyfriend left her. In a span of one year, all the worst things happened to me so please dont be surprised if im afraid to commit but that doesnt mean that I dont love May. I love her with all my heart but please give me time"

"I understand Edward. Bro, come here"

he hugged me and i just wanna say that having him as a bestfriend makes me feel that I have a brother to lean on.

"Edward, You're a fucking idiot but I get you"

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Author's Note

Dale is the ultimate brother. I swear!

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