My Life Splattered All Around

Myself

Put the food down.

The little voice in my head commands.

Your fat and ugly,no one will ever like you if you eat it.

My hands shake as I grab more food.

I'm so hungry I can't stand it.

I stop eating and walk slowly to the bathroom.

I go in and lock the door.

I walk to the toliet and kneel down.

I stick my finger down my throat and wait.

The food just pours out.

I get up and walk to the sink to brush my teeth and wash my hands.

I look in the mirror and sneer at myself.

I have tears streaming down my face.

My whole body is covered in pure fat.

I'm hideous.

No wonder no one likes me.

No wonder people were staring at me

as they walked by.

I'm too ugly for the world.

I start to cry more because I hate it.

I cry because it hurts.

I cry because I'm scared and confused.

I want it to end.

The hunger.

The voice.

Everything.

The doctors say it's too late.

They say I'm going to die.

I hate myself for doing this to my family.

My breaths are getting shorter.

My heart is beating faster and faster.

This is it I tell myself.

My eyes close and I drift off slowly.

I whisper ''Goodbye I love you all.''

I collapse on the floor.