Paw Prints | (A BDSM story) heartsnpups

The History

The past 7 years were rather... Grim. To say the least. When my ex boyfriend and I started Highschool, we started 'dating' almost immediately. Of course we were 12 when it first started, nothing serious at first. Our immature minds just thought we were both cute and that somehow made us think we were in love. We kind of just stayed together even though there was really no point. 

For a year and a half we only saw each other at school and still we thought we loved each other. Things just escalated after a while. Before I knew it we actually started going on dates, started really getting close and it became so much more than a stupid immature relationship. I think after a while we really were in love. But there wasn't much love in it. I had barely any friends because I was only ever with him, we fought all the time and at times I just felt neglected. It wasn't abuse, not at all. He was a really great guy. I was just never satisfied and I never felt like myself. I guess that's what you get for getting into a relationship so young and immature, when you have no knowledge of what relationships are supposed to be and holding on to something that just isn't destined to work. 

I didn't know what to do. I kept clinging to this relationship and I felt like I had no way out. I had no friends, I wasn't close to my family, I was depressed... So when I turned 16 and was finally able to leave my school, I joined a two year class for music. I hoped i would be able to get away and break up with him easily, but with my new free time during the day he made sure to find his way to see me almost every day. 

Thankfully, a few months ago i had the opportunity to start a college in the town next to me. It's not that far away but it's still far from everyone I knew and hated. Now, I didn't hate my ex boyfriend. I just hated how boring everything was. Also, during some fights he said things that really... cut deep. I finally worked up to courage to break up with him for good and blocked him on everything, blocked our mutual friends and I can now start my new life, the kind of life I wanted. 

The kind of relationship I've always dreamed of is, well, a BDSM relationship. It sounds stupid I know but something about it just draws me in so much. I found out about that kind of stuff when I was only 13. I would spend all day studying it and finding out all about it. When I was about 15 I told my boyfriend, but he had no interest in that. He said he was strictly vanilla and never wanted anything to do with it. We did other things in the bedroom, I lost my virginity to him and we had sex a lot. But our kind of sex never made me feel loved. I wanted the kind of relationship where I could be totally vulnerable but protected at the same time. Scared, but excited. Wary but trusting. The kind where I could trust someone enough to let them have complete control over me and push me past my limits while feeling their love in every knot tightened, every impact of a hand, every smirk and chuckle and brow furrow. Then to be released at the end of a scene into open arms, telling me how good I am, how well I handled everything and wiping the tears and saliva off my face. 

BDSM is a different kind of love. More strange and taboo- but in my opinion, more unique and special. The relationship between a dom and a sub has more trust, compassion, romance, companionship, tenderness and intimacy than any normal relationship I have ever seen. And after feeling like nothing my whole life, that is what I crave now. 

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(A/N)

Okay so this is just an introduction on my BDSM story, focusing around petplay. I want to keep writing but I'm not sure if anyone will actually read it but hey, I'll try. 

You might be confused on the whole schooling thing if you aren't from my country. Where I'm from, highschool is from age 12 to 16 but I know it's really different in other parts of the world so hope that clears that up. If you have any more questions, comment if you like but this is just the start of a whooole story so enjoy and please read ah. <3

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