The Insomnia Project

Working Through

I imagine my own demise

falling helplessly through cloudy skies

writhing in the pain of a twisted past

finding there is nothing for me at last

I try to hold on to nothing but air

only to know there is nothing floating there

I reach up and look for some saving grace

Fearing the day I would be replaced.

I'm working through it day by day

the wworst part is trying to stay away

my heart is in pieces and I can't deny

i almost feel better falling through the sky

My body feels like it's going numb

closer and closer to the ground and some

How I can't remember why I'm here

as the night goes on I'm consumed with fear

I don't know what to do or how to act

This pain is giving me the worst heart attack

I can't stand to feel so terrible

I love you and it's unbearable

to feel this way to hear the song

the one you said we'd dance on

I don't hate you, that's impossible

I'm just struggling because I'm unpredictable

I wish that someone would understand

I'm nothing like the common man

I'm insane, and that is not your fault

I'm losing, grinding to a halt

I'm begging the world please don't abandon me

I can't take it again, the first was agony

Back then my out was unrefined

Now I fear myself to be undermined

by this brain and these thoughts

I'm calling for some shots

The kind to knock me the fuck out

of this hellish and insulting pout

I find my mood in, declining signs

There is no reason, but I can't help the seasons

is changing winter is coming

hell bowed hell bent hell broken and the wolves are on the horizon

I was ammongst them once, thrown like trash

come back as the Alpha the competition I would smash

but here I fall so effortlessly

not even trying to save my sanity

How pathetic of me, to give up like this

You love me still despite your silentness

please, i'm tired, I'm sick, I feel like I'm fading fast

please don't leave me like a sailor tied to the mast

My ship seems to be sinkking, though my brothers hold me afloat

what I need is some kind of reason not to build another moat

around my heart and my soul

because I can't go on like this much more

I know I may seem like I'm bitching like I'm whinning

I'm still working through, please give me time to rewind.

Thank you for giving me this time and space to let out a burden on my heart. I don't like bogging the world down with more negativity, but I've been hit with some hard emotional strife the past couple weeks and This seems to be the most healthy way to work through it. Thank you.