The Insomnia Project

Honestly Still Anxious

Ithought I had moved beyond the fear of that day

Ihad thought I had grown from the experience

nothingbut a memory from the past that would remain

thatwould teach me to better remain within the lines

Iwas so wrong

Ihad seen those lights too many times in one year

Moreover, twas my fault and folly that brought them

twasmy negligence that sent me under that cross

twasmy disability that sent me into such a state

orso the record stands

Iwas content to be without the privilege

Iwas ready to pay my dues for the accidents

withthe understanding that I would move on

withthe knowledge that I would have grown

Sowhy have I yet to bloom?

Thepains have subsided

thelegal nonsense lingers

Myneed for that ability has faded

butthe anxiety of it has not

Icannot say for certain, but this is what I feel

I'mnot sure I will ever comfortably again be behind the wheel