My heart is to big for this messed up world. My arms are to far open for the ill intentions of others.
I try so hard to find the good in people even when my gut tells me not to.
I go through life with the biggest smile the truth is my smile is but a mask for the true pain i harbor in my heart.
My pain grows every single day because the very people I put my all into the very people I try to please are the very people that hurt me the most and they don't even know it.
I want scream out for help I want to pour out my heart but no one truly understands my pain no one truly understands a losers heart.
I try so hard Should be perfect person for every single person I try to be the reflection of a perfect being they need they need a shoulder to cry on even when I am on my bending knee wanting help for myself i stand up and give them my shoulder to cry on.
They need an open ear to vent even when I want to rip my own heart out I prop up and listen to every problem they have but the hardest part about that is
I'm going through life being a reflection of what everybody wanted to they point my very life and my very being itself became nothing but an illusion I focus so much on everyone's happiness and pleasing others my own happiness become nothing but a fantasy
I focus on everyone's problems so much my problems build up on my shoulders to the point where I can't even walk but at the end of the day I still continue to do what I've always done and that is be a reflection of what people desire.
My biggest fear is losing myself, But what I have come to fear the most is that I've been lost myself scariest part is I don't know what point in my life I lost myself.
The hardest part is being aware of the very problem that's in front of my face the hardest part is knowing my flaws the hardest part is knowing how to fix it but being scared that if I fix my flaws fix my problems I will lose even more the friends that I've made bonds I've created was a result of me being a reflection of life's desire and the fear is that once I stop being a reflection of Life desire I will lose all that I worked for but I've already lost so much part of me feels losing more would be natural for me.
I lost a love I cherished so much, I a lost Bond I thought would never break, I've lost my mind, I've lost my heart and I've lost myself.
I continue to lose more in life than I have ever and will ever gain and for that I will forever and always have a LOSERS HEART for as my heart loses more than it will ever gain what's worse is everything that I've lost in life I will never back.
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A Losers Heart
PoetryPoetry, and Short stories to convey the heart of a boy who despite every lose he's gone through steady treads foreword in hope of never losing again. The only problem is its his nature to lose no matter how hard he tries.
