Broken

*Chapter 14|Replay*

"At least tell this butt head to put me down," I ask her and she shakes her head. I let out a sigh and let my head drop.

I felt Antonio begin to move. "You alright there tiger?" Antonio asks.

"I feel like I'm going to puke."

The smell of banana pancakes hit my nostrils and my mouth watered, they smelt heavenly. "Good morning Linda," Antonio greets.

"Good morning dear," I hear Linda's sugary voice say. "Could you please put the poor girl down, I can literally see her turning green."

Antonio slowly let me down on my feet.

My head hurt and the world started to spin causing me to stumble. I fell off my own feet and landed on my butt.

I heard Antonio's laughter and looked up at him with a glare then I removed a strand of pink hair that found it way to my mouth. I steadily began to stand on my feet, ignoring Antonio's hands that tried to help.

I sat on a stool. "I hope you're hungry sweetie," Linda sings and places a plate of pancakes in front of me. I hesitantly picked up a fork and slowly took a bite out of it.

Immediately when it met my tongue my eyes unconsciously widened. It was delicious. I didn't waste time taking another bite, then another, and another, until the plate was empty. Linda gave me an amused smile while I just grinned at her as I tried to chew the huge amount of pancakes in my mouth.

"You eat like you haven't had good food in years," Linda says. She didn't know she was right. "Would you like some more?" She asks, I nod and she grabs my plate.

I swallow and sip from Antonio's glass of orange juice causing him to yell.

"Get your own juice!" He sends me a glare and I roll my eyes.

"Grow up."

I felt someone's eyes on me, out of instinct I looked around and found Asher staring at me while he leaned on the door frame of the kitchen. I raised a questioning eyebrow at him.

"This is the most I've ever seen you eat," Asher says as he approaches me and stops at the other side of the island.

"I'm going to get more juice," Antonio grumbles from beside me and walks away.

"So?" I cross my hands against my chest.

"You are the most confusing human on the planet."

Asher leans on the table. I blink at him, I honestly didn't expect him to say that - neither did I care anyway.

"So?"

"One day you're depressed, the other day you're a grumpy little troll that happens to hate the world and not care about anything," he says. I keep my face blank. "You keep getting more and more difficult to figure out."

"So?"

"You know, you don't have to be like this forever," he says. "You just escaped from him and he'll never find you again, you have a new chance at life, a new beginning," he smiles, I noticed this is the first time I'd ever seen him genuinely smile. It was cute.

"What are you talking about?" I ask him while breaking our eye contact. My eyes went to his mom who was making a fresh stack of pancakes, she seemed focused on what she was doing but I could tell she was listening. When my eyes went back to him he was looking down at the table.

"You have a bad past, I get it. We all do," he sighs. "There are somethings you wish you could take back, some haunt you for the rest of your life. But now you have a chance to put that all behind you, no one will know about your mistakes or your story," he says. "You have a clean state Bianca, enjoy this," he places his hand on mine.

"A clean state," the words left my mouth before I could stop myself.

"You get to start all over again, create a new name for yourself, put everything behind you. That's something many people wished they had. I know it's not easy to forget, but at least try to move on, and be happy," he stares intensely at me.

I noticed how he said all of this with a faraway look in his eyes. Like he was also speaking to himself.

"It took me a while but I think I finally figured you out," he says. "You were hurt Bianca, horribly. But you were never broken, you just chose to be, you let yourself be, you tried to forget but the scars were too deep. I know how that feels. You may never forget but you can always leave those scars behind, don't let the past define who you are today."

What's with the sudden inspirational speech?

"I know I might sound weird Bianca, but I'm right," he says. He heard me? i really need to stop thinking out loud. "You're not the worthless person they made you feel, you're much more than that. Though you feel alone, there are people that care and you don't have to stay the broken girl," he removes his hand from mine and I suddenly felt cold all over. "Take this as a new beginning, in two days your life is going to be on replay."

Asher left.

I licked my dry lips and took in a deep breath calming my thoughts. I rolled up my sleeves and glanced at my scars, I loved how it felt when I did this to myself, I craved the pain but I hated how much memories these wounds held and I hated how they wouldn't leave but turn into scars.

Can I really be happy again? Asher was right. My life was going to be on replay and I shouldn't spend it regretting my past. I should get over these problems and move on.

Antonio sat beside me and a plate of freshly made pancakes was placed in front of me but I didn't feel as hungry anymore.

Sure I have my life on replay, I have a chance to move on. But I can't get over these scars, they follow me everywhere I go, I need to learn to get used to them. I need to learn to feel again.

But I can't do it on my own.

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Crappy chapter. Kinda boring? The next one definitely wouldn't.

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