It's the fourth of July, the day of freedom. And I'm alone in my house while everyone else is enjoying themselves outside. I lied down on my bed again... what can I do today?
I guess I can go out and actually do stuff... Nah.
Maybe play some Minecraft? Meh.
I decided to just watch some YouTube videos.
I saw that Autumn uploaded another fails montage of her, Graser and H. I think I remembered joining a game with them in it, but I got kicked out.
I clicked the video and loaded it at 720p while I got food in the kitchen. I went back to my computer with it all loaded up. I watched it, laughing too hard every now and then. Until Autumn said something that made my heart stop.
"Hey! AllyAllium joined! Didn't you play with her a few months ago?" She asked.
"Oh, yeah. I know her! She's a pretty cool person."
H called me cool. Holy crap...
I went on Twitter again and saw that H is on, bantering with Graser.
@AllyAllium: @HBomb94 So, I'm cool, huh? ;D
I doubt he'll reply, he doesn't interact with fans much on Twitter, I don't think...
I stretched for a bit and decided to check my email for any news about PAX Prime.
Surely, there was a mail about my PAX ticket and even my flight details. I cannot wait to meet the gang.
My phone vibrated a bunch of times, it was crazy. I checked Twitter on desktop, though, since I was already there.
@HBomb94: @AllyAllium You sure are! ;)
@AllyAllium: Thanks. C:
@HBomb94: Will we meet you at PAX?
@AllyAllium: Definitely. I just got the mail about it! :) See you soon!
He didn't reply afterwards, probably needed to record Factions with Graser.
I figured I should go out and see what people were doing. Right when I got out, I saw people with blue, red and white in their outfits. It was almost too funny.
❁
I got back to my apartment and went to the balcony. I sat on my comfy beanbag out there, waiting for the fourth of July fireworks. I checked my phone, nothing from my family. They might hate me, but I'm just waiting for them to get me back, apologize. They haven't contacted me since I left. Whatever.
I went inside again to get my journal. I wrote on it with fireworks on the background. It's pretty relaxing, if you ask me.
July 4th, 2014
Today, I was alone. Nothing new.
I got my Seattle and PAX tickets, though. That's awesome.
And H talked to me again. I really can't wait to meet him. To meet all of them. They're the ones who kept me sane and alive. Without their videos, I'd probably be dead by now, eh?
I don't need my family. I don't need friends. I just need the internet, to be completely honest. At least no one's there to judge me. Right?
I stopped writing there, tears were already going down. I wiped them then went back in. Crap, I need to cheer myself up. I'm too sad.
I read some random fanfics, scrolled through various Cube Tumblrs and watched YouTube videos I might've missed.
I went over to Twitter last.
@AllyAllium: Happy Fourth of July! It's almost over. Goodnight :)
I'm already feeling way better, but I should sleep already. I slept with a smile on my face again.
I'm lucky to have the Cube people in my life.
