married?

twelve

Kendall's POV

I really don't know what the fuck got into me that time where I just blame everything to Katherine. I exploded that time, all of my emotions went out. It's been 3 days and we hadn't talk after that and what she said is really the solution which is to tell the media that we aren't married and gladly they believed her. I wanted to thank her and say sorry at the same time but I just can't. I can't just go to her and apologize cause maybe she's doesn't want to see me yet. It's also been three days with just me laying on my bed the whole day, just watching random Netflix show or scrolling through my phone and I'm just gonna go out of my bed if I'm gonna take a shower or I'm gonna eat which I barely do. I was startled when my phone rings up so I look at it seeing Emma's ID so I immediately picked up

"Hello? " I said calmly, I don't want to have a bad impression maybe cause she's Katherine's acting sister

"Hey Kendall, listen go to your car immediately like right now. Go run and I'll explain everything while you're driving" even though I'm hella confused I get up from my bed and run downstairs seeing that it's just 9 in the morning. I picked up my keys and rushed out to my car and connected my phone to my car to hear Emma clearly. I started the ignition and I guess she heard it since she started talking again

"Kendall, today is Kelsey's death anniversary " she says and that literally makes me stop and my breath hitched. I don't know what to do, I'm sorry that Katherine needs to go through these. "Kendall drive" she says softly making me snap out of my thoughts as I started driving and keeping my eyes and mind on the road. "Like what I said, it's Kelsey's death anniversary. How do you think Katherine will feel today? She's at her lowest point of her year this day, every year. I called you cause I have a long ass shoot today that will end after midnight so I can't accompany and comfort Katherine. I tried calling Ariana as well but she's in Florida with some of her family members so she really can't make it. Kendall, I'm counting on you. " she says in a very serious tone as I tighten my grip on the steering wheel "remember Kendall, it's better if she'll cry and get drunk or whatever. It's more of a broken her if she's just quiet and not crying. Please Kendall, do everything you can. I need to go back now, check her place first and if she's not in there anymore go out of the city, there's this place like a cliff she's mostly in there" she said so I hummed as she ended the call.

Once I reached her place I saw nothing so I go down to my car once again and drive as fast as I can towards where Emma says. It's pretty far, if you'll drive it. It'll probably take 10-15 minutes but I fucking drive so fast not caring if some police will caught me but I reached it at 5 minutes. I went out of my car and started walking towards this cliff and there I saw a figure wearing a dark blue shirt, denim pants, shoes on and she's kneeling down so I immediately run towards her. I take some moment to walk slowly towards her as I pull her backwards a little since she's too close to the edge

"Katherine I'm here" I said and I think she noticed my voice but she didn't move an inch. I looked at her face, no tears. Fuck.

"Katherine, talk to me" I said as I pull my arms around her and sit down on her side properly as I kept holding her hand with both of mines. She doesn't talk. She just stares into the distance with the wind softly blowing her hair

"Katherine, you can drink if you want to and I'll drink with you. You can cry and I'll cry with you. Whatever you want to do it's all fine just... Not this" I said softly as I squeezed her hand softly. She stayed quiet so I just let her be but I kept holding her hand and squeezing it time to time letting her know that I'm still here and I won't leave.

Probably 3 hours or more when she moved a little so I looked at her and she started crawling to the edge again but I kept holding her back

"Katherine no, it's too dangerous" I said but she keeps moving forward

"Let go then" she says and I can sense how cold and emotionless her voice is but I didn't even lessen my grip

"No" I said and slowly join her on the edge, I don't fucking know is this one is a safe place to be but she's making me feel like it

"What do you feel" she says when we're at the edge so I looked back at her as I thought I should be the one asking her that

"What do I feel? " I asked and she didn't answered back "I feel like I'm gonna fall by just moving a bit" I said and by that she smiles. An emotionless smile, I don't know how she pulled that off but yes she smiled but her eyes tells me nothing.

"That's how I feel right now" she said making me look at her eyes and I can't sense anything "I feel like I'm gonna fall and just die if I move an inch" she says but I don't think she's saying it like it is literal more like a metaphor "moving, is like crying and drinking like what you wanted me to do. I'll fall down, I'll go sink more to what I'm feeling right now. I actually don't feel a thing this day. I feel like I'm just nothing, I'm no one today. "She says as I kept quiet knowing that she's not done yet somehow "but what if... What if we fly? " she asked making me furrow my brows at what she's pointing out "I feel like I'm doing that right now. If I fall, I'll choose to fly. Like what I'm doing right now. I chose to fly to go to the highest and ask my sister if she got herself a hot chic up there" she chuckled and I know that it's real but a glimpse of sadness embraces it "that's what I'm doing right now Kendall" she says and this time she looks at me "I'm flying.. I'm flying by not moving in here and just having the rest of my time with myself, the air, this cliff and my sister behind those clouds" she says looking back at the sky. "But I guess we have a visitor today, do we Kelsey? " she asks laughing a bit as she looks at me

"I cried enough tears in the past years of this day so I think that's enough" she says smiling as she looked down "hey Kelsey" she says once again looking up "this girl right beside me? Yeah she's my wife, supposedly yours but you pass it to me you ass" she chuckles making me chuckle as well "she should've been yours cause she don't like me as much as she do to you" she says making my heart break. I hate to see her like this. I hate to know that I even break her heart when I'm not supposed to. I hate that I'm a bitch for crashing our sweet little moments together. I hate that I can't turn back time to where I didn't made my mistakes.