WRONG STRINGS ATTACHED

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"Tomorrow is Christmas kookie and we are coming to Seoul tomorrow."

"Jinja! Come fast then! I can't hold it in anymore." Jungkook squealed.

He wanted the meet to happen soon that he could move on with Tae.

"Come home with the first flight okay? And come here straight. I will cook the lunch. Just come back fast please!" he whined.

"Okay okay! We are coming tomorrow. Now let me pack. Bye Kookie and take care of Taebear."

"Will surely do sir. Bye bye" he gave him a flying kiss and ended the call.

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On the other hand Taehyung decided to pack some red velvet cupcakes for Kook as he loved them. With a big smile he rung the bell but no one opened the door. Trying some more times he gave up and used his key. He was going to shout for the other but before he could do that he heard the most heartbreaking things-

Oh my god hyung you are so cute! Just wanna come up there a squish your cheeks!

Jinja! Come fast then! I can't hold in anymore.

Come home with the first flight ok? And come here straight. I will cook the lunch. Just come back fast please!

Jungkook sounded so happy while he talked to Yoongi. Almost like he would die without him. Taehyung wanted to cry now. The feeling of not being enough for the other had again crept in.

Does he find me cute too?
Does he want me to come back home soon too?
Does he get impatient waiting for me too?
Does he laugh and smile like this with me too?

Of course 'NO'.

Jungkook had never confirmed or said anything and even though his actions said the obvious, Tae needed some kind of answer. He wasn't too mature to know everything and maybe needed some closure. Cause after all, he was still a kid with a sensitive heart which didn't know how to handle people and emotions very well.

Without saying a word and keeping the cake on the counter he went to have a bath. Jungkook had still not noticed him.

In the shower he was crying frantically. The pain was too much for him. So he decided to do something he always had thought of doing.

( Warning: Self Harm)

He went around and slowly took out the blades from under the wash basin which was covered by a cabinet. He took out a blade, first placing it on his wrist but didn't cut. Instead he started to make cuts on his thighs.

In no time his thighs had cuts bleeding badly. The floor below was red and he had finally stopped crying but he kept staring at the blade. Suddenly

"Tae are you in there? Please open the door. Tae! Tae can you hear me?" Kook shouted.

As if waking from a dream, he flinched due to the pain but quickly threw the blade away and wrapped a towel around him.

Walking out of the bathroom, he found Jungkook laying on the bed eyeing him.

"Jungkook could you go out I need to change."

"What is the problem? It's not like I haven't seen you naked." The other answered with a smirk.

But Taehyung wasn't in any mood to joke so he just took his clothes and went to change inside the bathroom.

Jungkook was surprised at this but thought it was only out of exhaustion.

Walking out, Tae quietly went to bed and laid down.

"Tae let's eat."

"Don't want to."

"C'mon don't be a kid. Let's eat I am hungry."

But Taehyung didn't move a single bit.

"Fine you brat! Be here. I am going to eat." expecting the other to come.

"Yeah a brat really."

"Did you say something Tae?"

He got no answer but only found Taehyung's back facing him.

For the first time Kook was genuinely scared of Tae's behavior but thinking about tomorrow he smiled and after finishing the cakes Tae brought he quietly laid down on the bed.

Taehyung could feel everything. For some reason he was expecting that Jungkook would cuddle him and hold him close but it never happened.

Am I not even good enough for him to hold?

Between his silent sobs he finally tried to sleep.

Tomorrow everything will change for good!

Both the boys slept with the same thought. While one was happy the other had given up on any last hopes he ever had.