Insecure [rochan]

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Rowoon didn't believe it. 

"You know if you're scared on any of the rides you can just hold my hand," Rowoon said softly to Chanhee. 

Chanhee just let out a small laugh under his breath.

"Thanks but I don't want to hold your hand," Chanhee said, with just the tiniest bit of sass. 

Rowoon just rolled his eyes and stuck out his tongue playfully. 

"Guys, do you want to sit down for a little bit?" Taeyang asked the two that were behind him and Youngkyun. 

"Sure," Rowoon answered. 

They went over to an area of the amusement park where there were picnic tables along with different shops of places to eat. They luckily found an empty table and claimed it.

"I'm getting drinks what does everyone want?" Taeyang asked. 

"I want water," Youngkyun said simply. 

"I want lemonade," Chanhee answered. 

"And I want to come with you," Rowoon said as he got up from his seat. 

"Okay we'll be back," Taeyang said as he left with Rowoon.

Youngkyun looked over at Chanhee who was resting his head in his hand. 

"So, are you having fun?" Youngkyun asked, trying to make small talk. 

"Youngkyun, can I ask you something?" Chanhee questioned, ignoring Youngkyun's stupid question. 

"Sure," Youngkyun said a little thrown off from how Chanhee spoke so suddenly. 

"Do you still have a crush on me?" Chanhee asked. 

Youngkyun let out a small laugh. 

"No, not really, maybe only a little," Youngkyun answered. "Why are you even asking?"

"I'm just curious," Chanhee said simply. 

"What about you, I'm sure you still want to kiss me," Youngkyun said with a devious smile. 

Chanhee just glared at the boy. 

"No, but I kind of wonder what it would be like if we had gotten together," Chanhee said, sounding a little upset. "Maybe if we had kissed in the nurse's office, and Rowoon had never walked in, we would've been dating by now, and I wouldn't be so paranoid about a specific someone leaving me."

"Chanhee, are you still scared Rowoon is going to leave you? What did I tell you before?"

"You told me to not worry about it," Chanhee said softly. 

"Exactly but here you are, worrying about it," Youngkyun said with a small head shake. 

Chanhee just let out a sigh. 

It wasn't long before the two came back with drinks. They sat there for a while, chatting about useless things, and just having a good time. 

Rowoon was holding Chanhee's hand under the table, and Chanhee didn't mind much, he was just happy Rowoon was happy. It didn't seem like it at times, but he really did care a lot for the elder. 

After they finished their drinks, they went on more rides. Youngkyun was trying so hard to go on every single ride in the park, but the other's started getting tired. Youngkyun kept insisting they go on one more but the rest agreed it was time to leave. The boy pouted but agreed he was tired too. 

"I had fun today, we should do this more often," Rowoon said with a smile. 

"Yeah, definitely," Taeyang said, unlocking his car door. 

"Bye Rowoon, bye Chanhee," Youngkyun said as he got into Taeyang's car. 

"Bye," Rowoon called, while Chanhee just simply waved. 

They got to Rowoon's car, which was a few rows down, and got in. Chanhee didn't say a word and just looked out the window as Rowoon pulled out of the parking lot. 

He drove away from the amusement park as the two sat in silence. Rowoon kept glancing over to Chanhee only to see him facing as far away from him as possible. 

Rowoon decided to break the silence. 

"Okay, tell me what's wrong," Rowoon said a bit sternly. 

Chanhee looked over to Rowoon slightly. 

"Nothing's wrong," Chanhee answered. 

"You're too quiet, didn't you have fun?" Rowoon asked. 

"I did, it's just I was thinking a lot today and I'm just so convinced you're going to leave me," Chanhee said sadly. 

"Chanhee-"

"No, don't say your not because you don't know. There is nothing good about me, there are so many people out there that you could date and have a life with, you don't want that with me, so why are you still here? You're three years older than me Rowoon," Chanhee said, getting more upset, sounding almost angry.

"I'm still here because I love you and I want to protect you and take care of you."

"I don't need to be taken care of," Chanhee practically yelled.

"Yes you do you're just a kid," Rowoon said, his voice raising too. 

"Exactly if I'm just a kid why are you fucking dating me?" Chanhee questioned, obviously getting mad because he was beginning to sware. 

"I didn't mean it like that-"

"Than how did you mean it? You're such a liar, you said you could be more than just my babysitter but obviously, you can't."

"Do you want to fucking bet, I am way more than just your babysitter you know that," Rowoon yelled, looking over to Chanhee with a harsh glare. 

"I don't want you to be anything to me," Chanhee said to Rowoon with anger. 

"So what are you saying?" Rowoon asked with furrowed eyebrows. 

"I think we should break up!" Chanhee yelled at him. 

Rowoon looked over at Chanhee with shock, not even sure if he heard Chanhee correctly. 

"Chanhee I-"

Rowoon was interrupted by the sound of skidding tires and shattering glass and before he even knew what was happening everything went black. 

*.........so........yeah........sorry the beging was a little shitty, and sorry for the ending, there is like seven more chapters of this story so.....yeah.....also Q and A is still up kookangs, feel free to do it. I'm sorry for this chapter*

-katz