Today's been the shittiest day possible. I woke up way too fucking early and shit just went downhill from there. I tried playing the Sims and watching Grey's Anatomy to calm my stress, but nothing fucking worked. I tried to push away all of my negative feelings because my parents aren't home and it would really fucking SUCK for them to get the "your daughter killed herself while you were gone" text. I made cookies with my grandma, which I guess is pretty fucking cool? Cookies! Except for the fact that she can't stand for long so eventually I was left to make cookies on my own and I almost passed out from heat stroke. FUCKING GREAT. While I was making cookies I was texting a couple people and one of them said he had to go, which is fine, but put me in an even worse mood because he couldn't stay to talk to me and I'm a selfish fucking cunt. So then I get done making the cookies and I'm watching a movie with my little brother which puts me in a good mood because my brother is my best friend, but there's this BITCH in the movie who reminds me of a bitch I fucking hate, so I was in an even SHITTIER mood. So then I get done watching the movie and I start getting lonely so I get all upset and I go outside. Then I'm like, "hey let's lay in the road and get run over!!" but NOPE people had to freak out so I moved to my swing. And then I wanted be alone, so here I am, being alone, venting because I'm so fucking AnGrY and sad. OH RIGHT! And I'm feeling like someone's replacement for someone else so that just. That feels great. Like sorry I'm not them. But I'm me. And I forgot, "ME" ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH.
Don't ask questions about who/what, I won't answer them.
