Hero (Loki & Avengers)

Twenty-Two

"It feels impossible." He says.

I don't reply. You can't force someone to want to be with you.

"It is impossible." He adds.

And that's that, I guess. I feel tears stinging at the back of my eyelids, but I blink them back.

I nod, and then I turn and walk out of his room.

What good is it fighting for someone who doesn't want you to fight for them?

When I shut the door behind me, I look up and jump as I see Cap standing there with his arms crossed and an angry look on his face.

"Not now, Steve." I sigh, walking past him.

"I told you I wouldn't say anything if you ended it. But you didn't end it, and you clearly aren't listening to me." He says, and my heart sinks. I turn back to look at him.

"What did you do, Steve?" I ask. He must have told everyone about us. A punishment for me not listening when he said stop seeing Loki. Great.

"Living room. Five minutes." He says, then walks away. I run to my room and shut the door, feeling my tears about to spill over. I sink the floor and let myself cry, because hell I think I deserve it.

First the man I love tells me he doesn't want to be with me, and now I have to go face everyone else as they yell at me for seeing him even though he just broke my heart. I sit on the ground and pity myself for a few minutes, but then I realize that stalling won't make them all go away.

I guess I may as well face them all.

I walk out of my room, wipe tear stains off of my cheeks, and walk to the living room. Everyone is already arguing with one another, and shouting at Loki who sits looking as melancholy as ever on the sofa.

"Oh great, Cassidy. Go join your lover over there on the sofa." Clint snaps at me and I flinch. He's not pleased with this, clearly. I listen though, sitting beside Loki. I don't even look at him. I can't.

"Barton, if you ever call them lovers again I will hit you." Tony quips.

I look up at Steve and shake my head in disappointment and anger. Some friend he is.

"I'm doing this to protect you." He says, noticing my glare.

That's the thing about Cap. If he thinks you're good, there will be nobody kinder to you in the world than him. The second he disagrees with you, he is against you completely. He is guided only by his morals, and he always thinks he is right.

Maybe this time he was.

I sink down into my seat and let everyone yell at me about how dumb I was. A chorus of comments come my way, but I don't respond to any of them. I just let them all chip away at me until I feel absolutely broken.

"What were you thinking?"

"Loki? Really? He's a murderer. He's psychotic!"

"He took advantage of her. It's in his nature."

"Isn't he like a thousand years old?"

"Cassidy I really expected better from you."

"I don't get what good you thought could come from this."

"It's foolish."

"Give her a break. He's the problem here."

"I thought she was smarter than this."

Eventually the voices blend so much that I don't even know who's saying what. It doesn't matter. The message is received.

I do notice that Tony has remained uncharacteristically quiet. He hasn't yelled at me once.