Shawn Carter and Beyoncé knowles have been best friends 7th grade , after jays mom moved them to Houston. The two quickly bond , and later act on their feelings and start dating . Jays an aspiring rapper , who's only real support comes from bey . Th...
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I waited
Don't ask me why , just know that I had not moved from this worn out warm spot in the center of my boyfriends twin sized bed or bothered to wipe the tears and snot running down my face onto his pillow
The sun had gotten low, so low the only thing keeping this room from being pitch black were the dull streetlights that came on like clockwork around 8pm in the summer, and 5pm during the winter when the time changed .
Hours must've gone by , but I couldn't bring myself to move
Not even the thought of the leather belt snapping against the skin as punishment for coming home after curfew could motivate me to leave
I was heartbroken And utterly alone
I had cried my weight in tears until the point where it hurt to close my swollen eyes for too long so I just stared at the wall Counting the trophies and medals that decorated it
Would our baby be an athlete like his dad ?
Would he have her warm amber eyes and singular deep dimple in his right cheek ?
Would he understand why things didn't work out between his parents ?
Grasp the fact that they were too young to be having sex and even more inexperienced to make a decision as big as keeping him ?
I moved for the first time in awhile
It was only to turn over but I wasn't going to celebrate the milestone
There was nothing to celebrate
The boy I loved more than life itself just proved to me that the faith I had in him was built on a foundation that wasn't meant to last when shit hit the fan
The "I love you" was only something he said in return , nothing more special than saying "Thank You" when someone handed you something you asked for
Not only did he leave me , he left the only other person I had left
The child growing in my gut
I tried hard not to ponder on such a depressing thought but somehow avoiding reality is what got in this place to begin with
Pretending the baby would just disappear if I paid it no mind was the reason I was showing already but refused to accept the weight gain and body changes and just buy bigger jeans and bras
