Her story

chapter 3

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Zano  POV

Last night was amazing  I mean he is an amazing guy after breakfast to I had to leave and I told him I just had to so now I am at home well my place so start cleaning up and I get ready to go back to work this evening. After getting  ready I lock up and head to the club  when I get there and I get it on with my first two customers  then I find myself chilling  around 8 and watching people walk around  and as I was about  to walk to the bar  my boss stops me telling me I have my last customer  which shocks me because  he said I have 5 for today then as I turn my head I see Jeremy  well don't get me wrong, my heart jumped up and down but I just changed my facial expression, "what you doing here " I say and I roll my eyes " well I came to have some fun, so you ready" with that a smirk plays on his face I so wish I could  slap it off so I get my things and same routine  we get to house and he smashes into my lips with his and I find my self correspondence which I hardly do actually, "why come back" I say in between breathlessly "I just can't say away from you your beauty just attracts me " he says and he kisses me madly, my heart instantly  jumps at what he says but I yell at myself inside. While at that I find my self on his bed and him taking off out clothes and getting to work

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I wake up to a shining light in my eyes which I try to move but the weight on my waist stops me which I remember  it's Jeremy , so I smile a little , and I am startled by him kissing my neck well I swear last night was amazing  something just changed about last night  the sex  just wasn't the same it was somehow nicer then I stand up head to bathroom to get refreshed hence morning  breath so then I go back finding him looking at me at every inch which I go in the covers as fast as I could to hide my bare body then he begins to talk "Zano last night was amazing " he said with a smile instantly  I felt a bit of guilt feeling as if I am making him pay for what I also enjoyed....."hey zano  what's wrong " he says as he brings me out of my thoughts
"oh no nothing  you know what it's fine you don't have to pay let's just say it was a favor." I say looking  down and he lifts my head and says " Zano don't say that and I am leaving  today" he then looks me in my eyes and my heart drops " well then you can say it is a goodbye favor " with that said I make my way to my bag and head to the bathroom but stopped my him talking " Zano  how about you come with me hence Zano  I....... "before he could finish " no Jeremy  we just met and no" and he talks straight through " Zano  I really love you and the past two days I have fallen in love with you" my heart instantly swelled up from hearing  that and I got back to my senses " no no no Jeremy  you better pick yourself  up because you will get hurt  Jeremy, what will i do when I find out you have a hot girlfriend I am not like them" with that I just got dressed right there and head out I didn't even wait for him to talk so I got out called a cab got to my apartment and I just said down the door inside and I just started  crying  at first I started blaming  myself and beating  myself up again and I ran to my bathroom and got my drawers open got my razor and slit my wrists  on my old cuts which haven't really faded that much and I got to my bedroom took out my cigarettes and lighter and switched it on and smoked  while crying  my eyes out. Once my loose was out I sat on my couch  but fell asleep
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I hear my door go off and I wake up opening the door without checking who it is and Nicky walks in and she just hugs me and I just start crying over again and she comforts me then she says to me" babes I will not feel bad for you, you did this to yourself "  with that my tears stopped and I looked at her confused but she carried on " Zano this guy loves you and he is willing to take you with him,i know he might be a stranger but we both know to you he means more than that"  she then looks at me . Well with everything of hers said I look down and I talk" well Nicky I am Scared what if he leaves me you know I don't want to get hurt and yes I have fallen for him but Niks I am not sure besides by now he has left" and my face drops
Then from there she stands up I am guessing to go to the kitchen and I just sit back and wipe my tears and head to the bathroom and I jump into a hot shower. When I got out I got dressed in my pjs and head out I find she has made us hot chocolate with marshmallows as it has become our favorite since.  We watched a movie then we fell asleep on the couch  like we used to before she got her new flat.

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While asleep I hear a faint voice talking but no response from it so I start to open my eyes and around but Nicky is no where to be found  in my sight so I stand up and walk towards the voice well where it's coming from, and I see her staring out the window  at the far end of the passage . I think she heard me cause she immediately turned and smiled towards me and she said her good bye then got off the phone,  then I head to the bathroom  bathed and got dressed in sweats and a shirt  then Nicky gets done so I tell her I won't be going to week I wanna sit at home she tell me the same.

After a wholesale starts again with this topic " so Zano  you really love this guy" she says " oh really Nick's did you really have to bring him up" with that I stood up heading to the kitchen " but Zano  you have to tell the truth you know, I know you have and don't hide it" and she stands up also " Nicky ....... Yes I do but he has left okay there is nothing I can-" I am cut by the door so I go into the living room and as Nicky opens my hear does a back flip, it's him " Jeremy " I whisper and he answers within seconds " yes baby it's me"

Then Nicky  comes to me and says " friend I called him cause you are a mess and no he didn't leave he couldn't leave you behind  babes  so I had to do something you will thank me later" and she pats my shoulder I don't even take time and I hug her but disturbed by him " well Zano I am so happy I get to see your beautiful  face again and it would be nice for you to come home with me" and I look at Nicky then him and I know my heart wants to go but do I really  want to, "
I am now questioning myself  but

Nicky just speaks out of the blue" Zanothando Mtshali this guy fucken loves you and you don't see this he wants to love you and you are pushing him away please just listen to me for once, "

With all she said I decided " uhm fine I will go but-" I am stopped by Jeremy
"no buts Zano " so I just went up to him and gave him a hug then he kissed my forehead

Then I hugged Nicky and said my good bye  and I head out trying not to show them that I am crying after a few minutes after I am outside they both come out Nicky thanking Jeremy moving  forward towards me and then we bid our good bye with that we are off to the airport.