Always and Forever Little LJ 💌

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I wake up at 4 am to Jamie Fox- Pickle sleeping in the middle of Kitty and I. I can't go back to sleep so I go in the kitchen to make some Night-Night tea and honey. There is something so special about waking up early, being up while the world is still resting. The quietness and coziness of our house is so comforting. Mommy was a morning person, she loved being the first one up. Whenever I would go downstairs for some water I would always meet her with some coffee and a book on the couch. Waking up early is my way of being with mommy. That's why it's so special. I go downstairs to make everyone a special breakfast before I leave. I made blueberry pancakes with butter pecan syrup Margot bought me from Scotland. When I am done it's almost 5:00 and so I decide to go upstairs and get dressed. When I am done putting on my hoddie and jeans I go back downstairs to make some hot chocolate and read for a while, to be with mommy. But it's too late.Trina and Daddy are on the couch with coffee watching the news.
"Morning.", I say with a hint of disappointment
"Today is your big day! You ready?" Trina says with a big smile plastered on her face.
"Yeah... as ready as I'll ever be."
"Good." She says with a genuine smile. I am so happy that Trina is here, she is so supportive and no matter what I do I know that she will be in my corner cheering me on.

Last week we went shopping for everything I could possibly need. Soap, Pads, Baking Ingredients, fuzzy socks. You know the essentials. Daddy and Trina have already packed the car and there are just waiting for us to come outside. I am heading toward the door , until I noticed a cloud of sadness over Kitty. We haven't really had a moment to process all of this, its all happening so fast. I grab her in for a hug and I give her a good squeeze.
"I'm going to miss you" I say with a hoarse voice.
I am about to let her go but she squeezes me tighter. We just stand there hugging and squeezing, and a single tear falls from my cheek. Daddy honks the horn, and the moment is over.

The three hour and twenty-five minutes feel shorter than I thought. The whole car ride Kitty was sleeping peacefully on my lap. I am looking out the window, just getting lost in my thoughts. Daddy tried to talk to me a few times, but he probably sees the worry on my face, because he doesn't really push me to answer. When we got there, flashbacks of the night Chris and I drove here are in my mind. I smile, remembering that really good burrito we ate and the water fountain filled with pee. I laugh out loud.
"What's so funny", Daddy says with a curious smile.
I hesitate whether or not I should bring up the subject of me coming to North Carolina without Daddy knowing or not. I decide not to, it's still a touchy subject. I shake my head while biting on my lip thinking about how great this year is going to be. We finally reach to UNC and Kitty wakes up just in time.
Kitty rubs her eyes to wake up."Wow, this campus is beautiful!"
"It really is, and big too", Trina says. She turns around in her seat and puts one hand on my leg and gives it a pat. "Your going to do great here." I smile. Something about her and Gogo, whenever they say I will be alright I always believe them.

We arrive to my dorm room and I am sharing a room with three other girls. The dorm room is beige with a caramel reclining couch decorated with adorable throw pillows, and three bean bag chairs. The kitchen has an island with vintage chairs. It's a really cute dorm room. I am the only one here, but a girl named April Andrews was here before me because her suitcases are already in her room. We are right next to each other. Her door is decorated with pictures of her family and friends with a homemade frame and stickers. In the middle of her masterpiece is her name in glitter. Daddy, Kitty and Trina help me put all my luggage in my room and then we say our goodbye's. When I finally put everything in it's rightful place,I decide to go and explore the campus. I call Peter so I don't look so lonely and out of place, but he doesn't answer. While I am walking a guy bumps into me. It's Chris' friend from that night.
"Sorry" he says softly. Then he does a double take "Hey aren't you Chris' friend from the other night?", he asks me with a smiles. He has dark skin, gorgeous hazel eyes and a beautiful head of locks.
"Yeah, Lara Jean. I am surprised you remembered!" I say shockingly. "And your name is?"
"I'm Alex, and how could I not remember. Hey, I'm not busy, I can show you around campus, if you would like.You look kinda lost." he admits. " That obvious, huh." I say " Yeah, thanks!"