THE SHAPE OF VOICE [#Wattys2018]

Chapter 44 : Where is Seungri?

*At Daesung's hostel

"Dae, what's wrong? you seems uneasy. During the group study session you seems lost too. Anything bothering you?" Ji Woon asked as he sit on the bed

"Family matters" Daesung answered short and keep starring at the ceiling

"Mind to share? Maybe it can makes you feel lighter... but if you don't want its okay. I understand" Ji Woon said caring

"My little brother, Seungri"

"Wh-what happened to him? He just fine right?" 

"He was diagnosed having kidney cancer. Last 3 days, when he was helping me packing up the things and suddenly he choked his breathe and he stopped breathing." Daesung stop sobbing and Ji Woon go to Daesung rubbing his back soothing him down

"Mi-mianhaeyo Daesung-ah. I shouldn't ask you earlier" 

"Ani.. its okay." both of them went silent and then Daesung continue 

"We've waiting for hours with full hope that Seungri is okay. Then we're blessed when the doctor said he's okay but we, all his hyungs never knew that we're gonna receive a bad news about his disease. Even worse, doctor said he stopped taking his pills." Daesung stopped again crying

"W-wait.. that means Seungri knew about the disease and he hide from you and your hyungs?" Ji Woon asked curious and Daesung nodded

"Oh my god?!?! How can Daesung-ah? He just 12 year old kid. Aishh..Wait, he's at what stage now? Still early stage right?" 

"Stage 3" Daesung said under his breathe 

"WHAT???" Ji Woon shouted a bit loud and he cover his mouth 
"What? You serious Dae? How can? Yaishhht" Ji Woon whispered and Daesung just shook his head as don't know 

"Stage 3? From what I know, cancer cells can reach stage 3 without undergo any chemo in at least 2 months. Don't you or your hyung noticed anything weird happened to him in the last 2 months?" Ji Woon asked again and

"Boys go sleep now its passed 11 already, I'll tuen off the lights or you guys still want to stu..." Mr. Jung cut off as he saw Ji Woon soothing Daesung down. 

"What happened boys?" Mr. Jung entered the room and sit beside Daesung. and then Daesung tell Mr. Jung about Seungri. Both of them are very close to Mr. Jung and they even thought that Mr Jung like their hyung who always be the best listener. 

"Your little dongsaeng is 12 years old right? Same school as yours before Daesung-ah?" Mr Jung asked

"Ne. That's why I so worried because he's still kid. And I wonder how can he hide this big thing from us, all his hyung. I feel like a stupid hyung for not knowing about his health." Daesung replied

"Don't you see any symptoms or maybe he act weirdly?"

"Along that 3 weeks holiday, I realized that his fever not heal fully. And his feet also seems always swelling also not really active. But I never expect about having cancer. I just thought that he's having fever, that's why." 

"So how's Seungri now?" Ji Woon asked

"Seunghyun hyung called this afternoon and said that the first chemo went well. Seungri might having side effect. And doctor expect his emotion might disturb since he's mute." Daesung tears fall down

"Nah, don't think about it much. Don't worry, your dongsaeng will be healthy back. He must be a strong boy because he can keep about his health. He must have his own reason by keeping it as secret. You have to be strong as his hyung. Okay?! Now go sleep. Tomorrow is your PE class right? You guys need energy. Sleep well boys" Mr Jung said then leave the room