Hopeless State Of Mind

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry for constantly apologizing
I've come accustomed to it.

I'm sorry I hide my feelings.
I fear they'll upset you.

I'm sorry I break down
During small disagreements.
I think it will explode.

I'm sorry I need a lot of reassurance.
I haven't felt happy with shit
For a while.

I'm sorry for always second-guessing
My abilities.
I just remember the details of
The situation that left me
Psychologically powerless.

I'm sorry for always feeling confused.
I feel like you're going to hurt me.

I'm sorry for reacting
Certain ways when you say
Or do certain things.

He made me feel ashamed,
Small,
Foolish,
Embarrassed even.

He spoke to me in a unfriendly
And disrespectful way.

He ridiculed me.

He always made fun of me,
He made fun of everything about me.

He always criticised me.

I was threatened if I tried to leave.

He always shouted at me.

Please me careful with me,
I can break at any moment like I'm a China doll.