Hopeless State Of Mind

Silence

I'm alone in my chaotic mind.
There's so many things
Running around up here.
So many thoughts,
And voices.

Can you hear the desperate screams?

Can you see me dying?
Of course not,
I'm dying on the inside.

My soul is rotting away.
Along with my happiness,
And the feeling of safety.

I'm sitting in the corner,
Hiding till it's over.

Hands over my ears,
Rocking back and forth
With my knee to my chest and
Waterfalls spilling from my dull,
Puffy,
Bloodshot eyes.

Wishing it'd stop.
STOP!
I keep yelling.
It goes silent for a second,
Then the chaos is back
And louder.

Marijuana drowns it all out of
My head.
Writing helps ease the insanity.
Sleep silences the voices.
Pain kills the screams.