This usually happens every night as well, i'll fall asleep and then wake up at a later time, like 3 or 4 am, i'm usually just naturally anxious, i tend to wake up because of the day that awaits before me
And because Yoongi is coming tomorrow, i'm a little more jumpier then usual, wondering that maybe at one point he could spice up my life a little bit, like, just thinking about it is making me shiver. Or maybe it's the fact that my AC is on high
Who know's at this point
I start to talk to myself, telling my self to start breathing slowly, hoping that i can calm down a little and fall asleep, and finally..
I did
~Yoongi~
I'm laying in bed, trying to convice myself that maybe this 'trip' won't be so bad, maybe i can have a little fun...but it won't work
Because deep down i know, i know that their gonna try to change me, and i won't let them, they'll have to drug me then replace my brain in order for them to be able to even change a little bit of me
But a little part of me still hurt's, it hurt's that my mom is willing to pay people to change me, that she's taking a risk for me to come back a different person, and it really hurt's knowing that she could care less about what happens to me. As long as i stop what ever i'm doing and live under a mask, she'll be happy
But i won't
And right now i'm not gonna play a fucking 'victim', i'm gonna stay the same and get under her skin, make her wish she never sent me to whatever place i'm going to
And that's a fucking promise
~Jimin~
'Holy fuck', was the first thing i thought of when i woke up from my 'little' nap
I decided that four hours of sleep every night was simply not enough, and since i had time i decided to take it easy and sleep a few hours before dinner
I sigh, rubbing my hand's on my face
"Jimin, come down stairs please" yelled my mom
"Why can't i just die already" i whisper to myself
"Coming" i yelled
I walk down stairs, and when i looked at my mom, i could definitely see that she was trying to make a good impression
She was wearing a down to knee purple dress with flowers all over it, her brown hair put in a pony tail
"Get dressed, Yoongi will be over in a few" she say's
I nod and turn around, slowly walking up the stairs
Before i wen't to bed yesterday, my mom said to wear something clean and presentable, not to much but not to little
I swiftly pull a white long sleeved shirt over my head, letting the fabric touch my bruised shoulders as i tense a little from the contact
I take a deep breath, rolling my neck and stretching a little, waking my self up a little
I walk go to the bathroom, looking at myself in my mirror, not even daring to look at my body, i just slap my face a little and splash cold water on it
"Good enough" i say to no one in particular
As i was going down stairs i notice a car parked out side.
"Are they here?" i ask
"Sadly'' Jihyun said, answering my question
I just nodded and sat down on stairs at the last step, getting lost in my own little thoughts
I wounder what he looks like, i mean he could be ugly but then again...you never know i guess
"Hello Ms.Min" my mom said, quickly snapping me out of my thoughts
"Hello Mrs.Park" which i guess the lady named Ms.Min said...
Obviously
"You have such a beautiful house" Ms.Min said
As the parents start talking, i almost forgot that there's suppose to be another person here, that is until
"Yoongi get in here" Ms.Min yelled
She then looked at my brother, then slowly towards me, she looked worried. Was her son THAT big of an asshole
After a few second's my mom told me and my brother to go get the table set for dinner
''What do you think look's like" Jihyun asked, putting his head on my shoulder
"I don't know" i reply wincing at the pain a little bit, "we'll just have to wait and see"
So as we were setting the table up for dinner, i couldn't help but to hear a dark raspy voice coming from the front door
"Bye Yoongi" Ms.Min said
"Whatever" i heard the raspy voice say, and since we weren't expecting anyone else, i'm guessing that voice belonged to Yoongi
Me and my brother sat down across from each other, waiting for my mom and Yoongi to come in and eat
My mom walked in, smiling at us then walking in the kitchen, asking Jihyun if he could help with food
I heard a cough, slowly turning my head i see him, Yoongi
And holy shit
Pulchritudinous was the first thing that came to my mind
He was beautiful, beyond beautiful, something i never expected him to be
He had a pale face, pale hand's as well. His eye's were a little on the darker brown side, as it goes perfectly with his skin tone
He had light pink thinish lip's, as well as pinkish cheek's, something thats naturally appealing, and he was like a cold winter wonder land, i could feel myself outlining everything on his face as i felt myself slipping more and more into his piercing gaze...
Wait...
He as well, was staring at me, and i instantly burn up in embarrassment as he had obviously saw me staring at him, but in a way it make's two
