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It's 3 am right now
And I lie in my bed wondering
Would anyone care If I disappeared?
It's not even like they like me
They just put up with me
It's 3 am right now
I'm thinking about that girl I once overheard
She said,"they just tolerate her.
No one actually likes her.."
It's 3 am right now
I'm thinking of all the times I helped people
They needed me and I was right there
But when I needed someone to pick up my pieces
They were busy with their own
It's 3 am right now
I was thinking of the times I was pushed down in the hallways
Teased about my body and shamed for being me
And no matter how much I tried
They still brought me down to rock bottom as I grappled tenterhooks
It's 3 am right now
And I thought of the times
I thought I'd found my life
Surrounded with good friends and happy times
Yet everyone leaves in the end anyway.
It's 3 am right now
And I reflect back on all the fake smiles and hidden lies
That surrounded me, there wasn't a way out
Wonder what's the reason a person starts feeling down.
It's 4 am right now
And I still wonder if anyone would care
It'll be so easy to end this life, fair and square
For is life worth holding onto
If you've got nothing to spare?
~ 13 February 2018
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mars; venus ➵ poetry
Poetry❛poetry comes from the highest happiness or the deepest sorrow.❜ ~ ᴀ. ᴘ. ᴊ. ᴀʙᴅᴜʟ ᴋᴀʟᴀᴍ I was in a dark place when I started this book, but I'm on my recovery journey right now. It's doubtful if I'm ever going to update this book ever again but I'm...
