Hi so before I start this story I just want to point out that this is a Kellic fan fiction and may or may not contain sexual content later on, so be aware :)
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Kellin's POV
For three years, since I was eighteen, I was really embarrassed to speak out about who I really am. I thought, no knew, that people will judge me, possibly be disappointed in me. Especially my mother. Three years from today I realized I wasn't straight, and I don't really know how it happened, it just did. The past few months prior I was obsessed with guys and started to hang out with my friend Jenna more than anyone.
"What's wrong me?" I remembered whispering to her. I felt...different. Like I wasn't myself anymore. It felt like I was going crazy, but yet I was stable in all other ways.
"No, nothing's wrong with you Kells you're just out of it." That right there didn't turn out to be the truth. Sure, I believed it for the moment, but a few weeks later things just started to build up faster, so fast I couldn't comprehend half of my life anymore.
When I was running low on hope, I decided it was time for me to talk to a guardian about this, one who may understand me, my step father. Now don't get me wrong, I love my mom, but she wouldn't understand at all. My dad was the best person for me to talk to.
I remember walking home from Jenna's that evening, scared to death because of what might happen next. When I got home I sat down on the couch and waited until my dad got off work at six. When he made his way home, we ate dinner and then my mom went to do some laundry. Deep breaths, calm down, everything will be okay... Honestly, the only three things I could really think.
"Hey dad, can I uh, talk to you about something...in private." My mom was in a different part of the house, but I still didn't feel comfortable in the living room. He nodded and we walked up to my room, and I sat on the bed, him by the desk.
"Okay so, this is really awkward for me to talk to you about, but I don't think I can ignore it anymore and...and I feel like you're the right person to talk to." I stuttered a bit and took a few deep breaths at that moment. All he did was nod. I sucked it up and got ready to say something I honestly wish I wouldn't have to be saying.
"Okay, so for the past...three months or so, I've really lost interest in my girlfriend Katelynn and I don't know why."
He interrupted me right then. "Well, sometimes relationships don't always end up working out like you planned them to." I shook my head.
"Can I finish? There's so much more." He nodded. "Not only did I lose interest in Katelynn, I was becoming more interested in..." I was so scared to say the last part.
"Interested in what?" My dad persisted. I was on the verge of crying then.
"Guys...I was beginning to be interested in guys. I don't know what came onto me, but it's affected me and I feel like I don't truly know myself anymore. I thought I was straight, but...but I don't know anymore. I have weird thoughts about people, and things. I'm confused dad, I don't know what to do anymore." I broke down at the moment and he walked over and sat next to me.
"C'mon son, don't cry, everything's going to be fine." He rubbed my back lightly and I felt so much better, knowing he wasn't upset with me. "I think you're just sexually confused right now. This is a big turning point in your life. You're going to move soon and things are so stressful for you right now. Just remember though that no matter what, I'm here for you and whether you like guys or not, I'm still going to support you." He smiled lightly and I hugged him, filled with gratitude.
