Second Chance (Sample)

Second Chance - Chapter Two

“Thanks, Cassie.”

“What’s new with you anyway?”

“Hmm, not a lot. Some guy at work asked me out, but I’m not going.” He was nice and very good-looking but it didn’t feel right, I think.

“Why not?” I shrugged. “Chloe, it’s been ages and you said yourself you want to move forward. You can date whenever you like, there’s no set time you have to wait before you can be happy again.”

I squirmed on the seat. “Yeah, I know. I do feel ready to date again but…”

“But,” she prompted.

“I’m not sure.”

“Well, there’s no rush but why not just go for a drink? Something casual. You don’t have to marry the guy.” I smiled, chewing on my lip. Maybe she was right. It was only a date; I wasn’t committing myself to anything.

“Doesn’t have to marry who?” Logan questioned, suddenly appearing back in the kitchen. He rubbed a hand towel over his short, dark blonde hair.

“Chloe’s got a date.”

My heart stopped as I waited for Logan’s reaction. I had spoken to Cassie and Julia in depth about new guys, but not Logan. I could talk to Logan about absolutely everything else but he was close to Jace – they were more like twins – so it felt weird.

He frowned and turned his intense gaze to me. “With who?” It was a simple question but it felt like the Spanish inquisition.

“Um, Rhys from work.”

I felt like a child waiting for its parents’ permission to do something. What if Logan hated me for it? Would he see it as me betraying his brother? But he wouldn’t expect me to be alone forever, surely? He smiled tightly.

“Have a good time.” That’s it? “You ordered yet?” he asked Cassie, turning away from me.

“About to. Will probably be about half an hour.”

Logan nodded and grabbed a beer from the fridge, while I sat frozen, trying to figure out what his response really meant. Why did it bother me so much anyway? Well, because he brought me back to life after Jace died, that was why. Logan meant so much to me. I hated the thought that he could be angry with me.

I watched silently as Logan popped the top off the beer and took a long swig. What the hell was going on in his head? He then put it down and got two wine glasses from the cupboard. “Are you staying overnight, Chlo?” He started pouring the wine without waiting for my response. Looks like it.

“Yeah, thanks.” He put the glass of rosé down and sat opposite me. Awkward. It had never been awkward between us before. With Jace it was at first but with Logan there was no pressure. I was just his little brother’s friend and then girlfriend, so we hit it off straight away. I had no preparation for awkwardness with Logan. Usually, if I knew I was meeting people I would think of a few random things to ask, but I had nothing here.

If Cassie wasn’t in the room, I would have made and excuse and gone home. “I’m starting spinning,” Cassie announced. Okay…

“You don’t do any exercise, Cass, you should start with something less physical,” Logan advised. “Spinning is pretty full on.”

Cassie nodded. “I know. I want full on.” Oh, this was about Rick. She wanted to take her mind off everything that was going on. I went the opposite way when Jace died, there were no distractions that could have worked. I became a hermit and just existed. “Wanna come, Chloe?”

“Sure.” I’d been spinning before and it was complete hell but it worked. Logan was right though, someone who wasn’t used to exercise really shouldn’t start with that. “Your legs are going to kill you. You sure you want to go straight in with spinning?”

“I’m sure. I’ll call tomorrow and book it for next Sunday.”

Logan smirked. “I’m so glad I’m working that night.”

“Oh, shut up! I’ll be fine, Mr Muscles,” she teased, throwing a plastic lemon at Logan from the for show fruit bowl. She was so not going to be fine.

***

The second Cass left with her wine, I turned to Logan. He had a bottle of beer in each hand and smiled innocently when I spotted them. I needed to talk to him about Rhys and clear the air, but I was nervous. My heart rate increased, and I had butterflies. “Logan?” I said quickly before I could back out.

He turned to me. “Yeah.”

“Earlier, when I told you about Rhys…”

“What about it?” he responded. Poker face. I hated when he showed nothing, he was so good at it. Usually, I could tell what Logan was thinking from his expression but when he shut down he was a complete mystery.

Chewing on the side of my mouth, I turned my whole body so I was facing him. “You acted… strange. I didn’t expect that.”

“I acted strange?”

“Logan, stop. Please, just tell me what you’re thinking.”

He shrugged with one shoulder, not even bothering to put the effort in for a full shrug. “You can do what you want, Chloe. You’re a big girl now.”

“Don’t be like that. Do you think it’s too soon? Do you think I should wait longer? It’s not that I don’t still love Jace because I do. I just want to be happy again. I’m ready to move on but I don’t want to hurt you or piss you off if you think I shouldn’t—”

“Chloe,” he cut in. I took a breath. Maybe I went overboard but I opened my mouth and it all poured out. He sighed and put his arm around my shoulder. “I don’t think it’s too soon. I’m sorry I was a dick earlier. Go on the date if it’s what will make you happy.” He wrapped his other arm around me, holding me tight. “I just want you to be happy.”

“Thank you. I think I’ll go. Can’t hurt to have a drink or something, can it?”

He pulled back and smiled. “No, can’t hurt at all.”