I'm G-Dragon's Bestfriend

Purpose of My Life

Chapter 1: My Purpose of Life ♥

If anyone of you asks one another what your lives purposes are, you'd probably answer the basic things; marriage, having kids, giving your parents happiness, etc. But for me, my life purpose is to meet G-Dragon a.k.a Kwon Ji Yong in person, get to know him and to let him know me, Kang Yeojung.

I was only 14 years old the first time I ever saw him. It wasn't a first sight 'Idol' crush, but, somehow I developed the feeling of not wanting to date anyone else besides him, know what I mean?

People, especially the one or two guys whose hearts I had rejected, asked me why I wasn't a 'normal' girl. And I, clearly don't know what they mean. Okay, so those 'one or two guys' are not bad.

For one, Jung Kyung Ho, who is actually my childhood friend, is financially stable, his personality is better than anyone else, his mom made the best gimbap and his dad just complimented and sometimes gave me a dime every time I visit, but, I just couldn't see him as someone more than a friend. He was just someone whom I felt comfortable being with nothing more.

And then, Hwang Yoo Jin, someone who resembles 'him'. I met him in college back in 2009. He's a guy who most girls want to get involved with; parties every weekend, playful yet sincere, charming smile, rides a black Mercedes, loaded with money, educated (in his own ways), plays music. He was someone who really gave me what they call 'butterflies in my stomach'. But then, I realized that I was merely thinking of him as 'him'.

I'm not saying that I'm the popular girl but, I do have a '7 on the scale of 0 to 10' face. And I don't have the perfect body, but at least I'm 160 cm tall, my body weight of 50 kg and my hair doesn't look like a helmet on my head.

So enough with that, my point is I have no other interest in other things except for being someone Jiyong knows. My parents are even frustrated with me. I graduated top of my class, I could've chosen to be someone more useful (in terms of income), but I didn't, I chose music engineering. Even my older sister, Yeojin was and is trying her best to make them proud and took what interests her best, and that is being a doctor, what a bright future. People who meet us rarely knew that we're biological sisters. They'd always say, "Wow, Yeojin-ah, you're so smart!" "You're beautiful, smart and kind, every guy must be chasing after you!" To Yeojin. And to me, they said, "Ah, you're going after music tech." "Can you even play music?" "Ah, you used to play piano...are you even good at it?" "Still obsessing about that gay-like idol?" And then I'd get pissed off. If it's a 'she', then I'd scream at her, if it's a 'he', I'd punch him already.

People who knew about my i-don't-know-what-this-is-called thingy about Gdragon would ask me why I'm obsessing about that guy. I'd tell them that I wasn't obsessing I was just admiring. And they'd just shake their heads, giving up. And then, I'd tell them why I love him.

I love the fact that he makes his own songs. I love how he dresses; how he changes his hairstyle every time he came back with new singles; I love how he said the word 'swag'; how he wrote 3 songs in one go; how he blushes while being complimented on stage; how he loves to watch historical dramas; how he tried to imitate his YG daddy; how 'Yong' in his real name means dragon; and most of all, I love how he smiles.

As much as I love him, I hate him for making me this way. I know that I'm...obsessed. But, I just wanted to be known to him, not as a famous celebrity, but as a normal person. And I know this sounds really cheesy and weird, but, that's all I want, really. Probably after that dream comes true, I'll think about my future.