Rachel had been in the room for about an hour and it was driving finn insane. He was so ashamed of himself.
He went out into the hall and went to her bedroom door, he lightly chapped on it. He heard her cries from behind of the door
He slid down the door and began to sob , he was screwed at this point. He pretty much just lost his world over some stupid kiss that should never have happened
He heard rachel crying even harder now, he had been sitting there for about 40 minutes,Just thinking to himself, what he had done and what Rachel must feel like
He then thought of an idea to get rid of the pain, he got up and went into the kitchen and got a knife
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He went outside into the hall, he took of his suit jacket and pretty much ripped his shirt off, this left him bare chest
He looked at the knife and then to his arms, he saw the previous deep scar marks that he had previously drawn a blade over
He ran his hand over them and felt an urge of anger towards himself. He picked up the knife and hovered it above the skin on his arm
He couldn't bare it anymore, his mind was screaming yes!!! But his heart was screaming no!!!!
He was worthless anyway, he had just lost the one thing that he adored and that was Rachel
He dug the knife deep into his right arm, he saw the blood make its way down the side of his arm and drip down onto his plain white shirt that he had just took off
He kinda liked the feeling of this
He done a lot more, the more he done it, the deeper he was going, it got to the point where he was screaming very LOUD
He had tears streaming down his cheeks rapidly
He suddenly got dizzy and before he knew it, things went black
Rachel was sitting in her room when she heard Finns screams, she wasn't exactly on good terms but this scared her
She bounced up out of bed and unlocked her door, she ran out into the hall to see finn laying there lifeless, pale white,unconscious,with open scar wounds on both arms
She rushed over to him and looked at him carefully
She was in buckets of tears by now
She phoned an ambulance and told them to get there as quick as they could. Was he dead? She checked his pulse and nothing
"Oh fuck, finn baby! Come on, wake up!" She sobbed but soon remembered his blood loss
She saw his shirt on the floor and grabbed it and ripped it in half and tied it around both arms tightly to stop the bleeding
He was so pale, what if he dies?
Just then the paramedics barged through the door and made their way to finn who was still unconscious
They put an oxygen mask over his face and put him on a stretcher, they done a couple of test and then ran down to the ambulance with him and Rachel
Rachel got in the back with his body on the stretcher, she took his hand and held it tightly
They got to hospital and rushed finn into surgery, which left Rachel sitting in the pale white waiting room by herself
She was a mess, he hadn't cut in ages! She felt to blame for this, if she hadn't reacted the way she did, he wouldn't be in hospital
She sat and just cried and cried, a nurse came into the room and asked her if she wanted some water, she agreed and the nurse went out to the water machine
The nurse returned and gave Rachel the water, Rachel thanked her and eventually the nurse left
Leaving Rachel alone again
"Please be ok finny, I love you and you can't leave me" she whispered to herself and began to wonder what could happen
Sorry if this was triggering, just a message for people who is thinking about committing suicide or self harm- please don't, There is help lines and places that can help! It's not worth it, you only have one life! Make the most out of it by living every moment preciously, love you all- Nicola 😘
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Under the mask
Teen FictionHe's a murderer, yes that's right a murderer that has never been caught. He hunts down his victims at night and kidnaps them, then kills them. But will one night that he captures a girl change finn?
