i give up
it's easy to give up,
it's easy to be lazy.
the people say, but it isn't.
it's extremely hard,
too hard.
because we as human beings can easily go around day by day living,
loving , breathing.
but the hard part is sleeping.
the days you can't get out of bed
the days where all you can do is sleep, but desperately want to productive.
the hard part is breathing when all you can do is suffocate in the lies, the misery, and the heartache of this unfortunate existence
i did it.
i made it easy.
i made it look like i knew what i was doing,
to please everyone
how cliche i insist,
that i simply hid my misfortune with a smile.
loud loud loud
it's all too loud.
too loud
the thoughts that course through my head like a gun.
i shake, i twitch
i cant stop one i've started
one two three
stop stop stop
i ache.
it hurts
