LIFE AS ME// autobiography?

12/30/17

hello hi good morning/afternoon/night

wow this is the second to last update of the year...

i'm thinking possibly that for this i'll make a new book for this for 2018

ya know, new year new me

anyways tomorrow i'll be making a New Year Special for The Dream Files cause i didn't do a christmas on :/

anywho today

I woke up around 8:30 but I sat in bed until 10

then i kinda just sat around until lunch

then after that I started typing up the character name meanings

AFTer my sister broke our computer but my mom got it to work

that took a while to type

then we went to dinner at Las Margaritas and now my stomach hurts

haha anyways i was searching around for songs and I found this song called My R

and basically the theme of it is suicide and

lemme just tell you its so good

like also it so relates to Daiki and Hise

like one line is

"I just want to stop the scars that grow every time I go home"

and honestly makes me so sad

because I know this is how Daiki and Hise think

like i know they are just characters but im so attached to them, and they are my babies

but if im being honest this is how Hise thinks

like the last line is so her

"This little girl is gonna jump now and be free"

the whole song is about a girl who stops people from jumping, and the last girl who jumped was exactly like her

basically the girl singing in the song her childhood was stolen, her family abuses her and other bad things

and the whole thing is she goes there to jump but there is already someone there

so she helps them and they don't jump

but finally at the end there isn't anyone there, so she is finally free, and she jumps

hence the last line being, "this little girl is gonna jump now and be free"

its a really touching song

anyways away from the sad things i got a shake

HECKLES YEAh

qotd-

Any songs that make you cry?

aotd-

sorry to be more depressing but the song Innocence makes me cry cause of Edgar, and well now My R makes me extremely sad

smh i just played innocence and i literally stopped and just sat there, cry

i know that the theme of innocence is really happy and uplifting but its just so sad to me, i mean it was his favorite song

okay out of that another one that made me cry randomly was Never Grow Up, like when im a parent im going to relate so much

peanut out-

shit one more that makes me cry is Dear Theodosia Reprise because if you know Burr is my boy and he crys during this song cause Theodosia dies AND MY HEART StopS EVERY TIME