I Think. . .

{Part 4: When it Started}

Rio's Perspective

Basically , the snobbish Roy didn't start yesterday , Sunday . I mean he did notice me a couple of times in the arcade , he didn't fake that I wasn't there , so I'm kinda good after yesterday , though today , I may fear that some shit that happened yesterday would expand this Monday . It may be a boring story , reading how Roy would ignore a bitch like me , but let's see how it would turn out .

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I walked through the school gates , looking down to the ground , not expecting any shit after yesterday fun's night . I knew it was too good to be true so don't be like an expecting bitch like me . I just walked and walk to the school door . What happened in the bus ? Oh well , that's a nice question , Althea wasn't there , that black haired demon ... but she told me that she'd be coming late after the first class , so nothing to worries aside for not having someone to talk to aside from Jari.

I stopped my tracks to look behind , nothing to look behind but I just wanted to , till I was pushed to the ground by a heavy weight , I closed my eyes as I felt the pain in my ass crashing to the ground , as I open my eyes I didn't even see the kid who ran into me , as I look back I just saw a chubby kid running away fr-

. . . Wait . Isn't that Roy ? The last time he bumped into me , he felt concern for me , at least once , I didn't know what happened after , I didn't know what I've done to him , I didn't know anything , everything was fine for like ... two days . Well.. whatever , not everyone could be your best friend or at least a friend for a day , Rio . How do you expect to have some friends if you just had your mouth shut and have some attitude as you talk to some strangers ? How on earth do you expect that from someone ?

I've felt that a tons of times , rejected by people , arguing with people , losing to people , though the feeling through my heart didn't made sense , obscene Roy started to avoid me , it's like he was abating me , or at least me abating myself , when we met each other , it was just like a normal thing to have in an acquaintance level . Now I just didn't know , now as you see it , the boy not anymore noticing me is just like what you expected in the descriptions .

Even though we were just in an acquaintance level , it was like a connection that I wanna have with a ninth grader , but what would you expect for that ? —Don't think about it anymore , as long as you didn't think about it you're fine , Rio, the more you think about it the more it haunts you and the more it hurts you . But if you put your mind into one , placing your attention in another object , you're fine .. just as long you're distracted , you'll just be fine .

I sighed and continued walking down the crooked and rough stones to the opening door . As I saw my locker , I immediately went to unlock it and found out that something was inside the locker that I didn't had . As I revealed what it was , it was a letter , I unfolded it and read what was written on the paper .

Most hated one ,
I know I hate you , and you'll never change that , once I got to know you I was fine just like a knife , but once I knew that you had someone else , you just had to show it on my face
~Your Beloved One

I read it slowly , over and over again . I looked up at my locker and crumpled the paper , knowing that it was Roy , by the start . What the hell was his problem ? Me having someone else ? Oh , what did he meant by that ? I was and will never be from someone's hands ever . I don't trust people to get their filthy hands on me and play me just like a puppet . Just like once when I was with my family , when I had a family , they played me just like a puppet .

"Hey" I heard . I looked aside to see a brown skinned guy , with glasses , he was smiling at me , but just in case I know that he was talking to me , I look side to side if it was me and pointed at myself , he chuckled and nodded "Yes , you—have you seen Roy?" Asked the man . I looked down and sighed .