Logan's Heart

*11* K.O.

Logan J

He said love, well I think that's what I heard. That can't be right, I shook my head, cause I knew there was no way that we were ever in-love with one another. Or at least not on my end

I looked at Jus like he had lost more than just his marbles, and hadn't seemed to find them, "We were never in-love Justice" I shook my head again, shocked that he thought that we were, "We would just fuck from time-to-time, and that was it" I waved my hand around getting a little pissed at the latest info that was just thrown my way

"Oh so we were never in-love?" He got up from his seat, looking as angry as I was feeling

"No we weren't" I shook my head again

He chuckled humourlessly, "How you gonna say that when everytime you went at it with your dad, you would come to my house? Whenever you needed comforting, I was there for you no questions asked. You ain't never dated, or fucked anyone else aside from me the whole time we was together" he laid out all our history for me. History that I didn't even think was like that

"How many dates did we go on? How many times did you introduce me as your man? You think we weren't in a relationship and yet from where I was standing, I was" he scoffed, done with getting his point across, "You would say one thing to people outside what we had, and then turn around and say something else when it was just us. Oh we just fuck buddies Jus, it ain't like that, but the minute Charlotte showed any interest in me, you told her to go fuck herself, and that I was yours" he paused, so he could turn to look at me, "Remember?"

Shit, I dug myself into that one. I guess I did get a little jealous when a female tried to flirt with him, but that didn't mean we were together, "There you go, being in that head of yours again" he threw has arm up, looking exhausted, "I loved you Lo" he confessed, throwing himself back on the seat he had been sitting on, "Loved you so hard, that walking away from you nearly killed me. I was depressed for months, and if it weren't for Junior and CJ, I'm pretty sure I'd still be" he covered his eyes with his hand, "I have never been the same. In and out of relationships so fast, I can't even remember the last girl I was messing with" that confession had me look away from him in pain

I didn't wanna think of him with anyone but me, but I was being selfish cause I wasn't letting him in either. Guess you could call me a contradiction, "I'd lead a woman on, then drop them once they got too close. Sounds familiar?" He opened one eye, and peeked at me through his fingers, "Hell, I still love you. Never really could get over you, but looks like you have" he stood up, looking years older than he did when he walked in

He walked over to where I had been sitting, listening to everything that he was spitting at me. He looked down, starring for a while, then leaned closer to me, and kissed me on my forehead, "Junior was right. I need to let you make your own decisions, instead of bulldozing you with how I feel" he whispered before straightening up, and walking out my loft

I swear I was left confused, one minute he was on my case about us, then the next, he's all calm like he ain't just shocked me with his confessions, "I swear that nigga bipolar" I mumbled, once he was gone

I shook my head, and stood up to go to the kitchen, so I can get myself something to drink. I took out a glass of wine from the glass cabinet, and a bottle of red wine that I had opened earlier when I was waiting for Justice. Alcohol is the best remedy when one is trying to forget for a few hours

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A week later

I hadn't spoken to Justice, aside from the plans that him and his brother had for the anniversary party. I kinda expected him to come through and be all over me, but he was professional, which kinda caught me off guard for a second, but I gained my composure and went to telling them about the theme and the venue