Plot Twist

twelve

I was at the boys house now and just chilling in my room.
"Hey" Tony said as he slowly crept behind the door.
"Hey" I smiled at him.
"Can I talk to you?" He asked me.
"Yeah for sure" I told him.
"So uh... Joseph talked about last night with you guys" he told me. My heart dropped.
"I'm not mad. I just wanted to tell you that I'm doing out of this little race." He told me. A race ?
"Race? This isn't a game. I'm not flavor flav. This isn't the bachelor. This is real. My emotions are real. My heart is real. This isn't a competition to see who can win me." I snapped. Like the old me came out for a little bit.
"Then what exactly is this to you?" He asked.
For a moment there I was speechless. What is This?
"I don't know.. I don't know.. I don't know what this is. I don't know why this is happening to me. But I do know that I just met you guys and I feel like I've known you guys my whole life and I care about you guys so fucking much that it isn't right. I do know that I can't just pick one of you guys because all of you guys treat me so fucking right and are such amazing people to me and it's hard." I said raising my voice a bit.
"You're going to tear us apart" he said. My heart dropped. No.
I could literally fell my heart being slowly ripped apart. I could feel tears slowly forming in my eyes.
"Maybe..." He paused as if he was almost scared to say the last part.
"Maybe you should..." He spoke slowly ".. leave"
I grabbed my bag and put on my shoes.
I pushed past him and jogged down the stairs and out the door. All the boys were in the backyard so thank God they couldn't stop me or ask questions.
Out of all the boys. Tony was the one. Least expected from him.
I started walking down the long empty road. Tears fell down my cheeks.
I stopped and fell to my knees in the middle of the road. I was wearing shorts so it kinda stung. I was gonna have bruises and scratches. I ran my fingers through my hair.
This has never happened to me. A heartbreak.
I felt as is someone ran a steak through my heart and stuffed cotton down my throat.
I gasped for air. Tears trailed down my cheeks. I fought for air.
"I'm okay. I'm okay" I spoke to myself.
A very important quote to me popped into my head.
"The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows, it's a very mean and nasty place, and I don't care how rough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. " I whispered the wise words from Sylvester Stallone.
I took deep breaths and slowly stood up.
"I am smart, I am strong, I am independent, I am amazing, I am beautiful" I told myself.
It hurts that I lost the boys but I would hate to be the ones to break them up. Maybe this is for the best.
It took me two hours to get home. When I did my mom was up about to go to work. She was making coffee.
"Honey oh my god ! Are you okay?" She said looking at my body. My legs are bruised up and my eyes are puffy and red.
"Yeah.." I croaked out.
"What happened?" She asked.
"I am done with the boys. They think I'm breaking them apart because they're all 'competing' for my love" I said and she put my head on her shoulders.
"Honey it will be fine. Look you just met these boys and look what they've done to you already. Maybe this is for the best mija" she told me and I sobbed on her shoulder.
"Shh shh shh" she rubbed my head.
"I can't see the boys mom." I told her.
"Well you can go live with your dad for a few weeks to get your mind off of them" she told me. I thought about it.
"I'll sleep on it and I'll let you know tomorrow." I said and she nodded. She kissed my forehead.
"I love you mom" I told her.
"I love you daughter" she smiled. I smiled too.
I went up to my room
Is moving the right answer ?
It would help me out a lot. To forget about them for a while.
I can't tell Damon or Sessa cause if the boys ask them then they'll just snitch on me. Can't tell Dani cause she will tell Andrew who will tell the rest of the boys. Only my mom can know.
I showered.
I stood there for a while watching the water drip down my body and trails down my arms and legs.
The water was super hot but the burn felt good. Nothing like a little pain to remind you that you're human.