Oceans

Trapped

Trapped in a glass box sinking through the ocean

The water's swirling all around me

The air is running thin

My breath is shallow

I gently tap on the glass and watch the cracks spread around my finger

Water slowly seeps in through the cracks before the pressure breaks the glass

Water cascades in around me

Covering me

Smothering me

Drowning me

I fight for breath until I realise that I don't want to breath

I open my mouth to inhale water but all I receive is air

I open my eyes to the blurry water around me

I'm still sinking down into the deep sea

Being pulled by some unseen current

The ocean wishes for me to live, but only in pain

The pressure starts to crush my chest

The darkness starts to cloud my vision

The pain starts to invade my very soul

As I sink deeper all my senses increase

I hear every little noise my body makes

I feel every little twitch my mind creates

I regret every decision I've ever made

I analyse every word I've ever said

I wince at every memory I've ever made

The darkness of the ocean has now almost completely consumed me

The pressure around my chest is almost unbearable

My breaths come in short supply but I'm still receiving air

I've finally reached the bottom

The sea buffets me from every direction

I try again and again to swim upwards but nothing happens

I suddenly feel strangely relaxed

Drowning and not drowning

Breathing and not breathing

Lying, crying, dying

But if I'm going to be stuck in this immense world of pain

Then I might as well lull myself into a false sense of peace

The pain strikes from every angle, but I take no notice

The pressure builds crushing every limb, but I don't mind

The touch of death wraps its way around my heart, but I don't care

This is my life now, this is my choice

There's no way out of this, so why fight it

I relax into the tide

But don't be fooled, when I say relax I'm still dying

I'm just choosing not to acknowledge it

The pain builds once again

I don't see why it could be worse and I open my eyes

There is a creature that has wrapped its way around me like snake

It stares at me with beautiful green eyes

Eyes that shine like the moon on a summers night

These eyes seduce me into a false sense of comfort

They entrance me in such a way

That when this creature starts to wrap it's jaws around me, I don't realise

Until it's too late

I'm in the worst situation I can think of

And nothing can change my fate

Death will not consume me

And life won't take me back

I'm stuck in this painful torture

And after days and days of agony

Something comes along that saves me

And takes me back to shore

And I might have a few more days upon the beach

But as beautiful as the beach is

The ocean still calls me back

So I gently dip my feet in

And I step out a little more

And eventually I reach a point

Where I dive into the ocean's cold embrace

Where nothing has been mapped

And once again I feel it, that terrible feeling of being

Trapped

Trapped in a glass box sinking through the ocean

The water's swirling all around me

The air is running thin

My time is running out