Cowgirl Up Three ✔️

Chapter Fifteen

I'd hoped beyond hope that by the time I made it back to Peyton's Ward I'd have some semblance of control over my emotions.
But every new thought that entered my mind had me crying harder.
Luka.
Brodie and Dale.
Blayze.
Phoenix.
Zuke.
My Mum.
Just thinking of each of them had my heart breaking and my soul bawling its eyes out.
I stopped in front of the final double doors that I had to pass through and sucked in a slow, shaky breath.
Get it together Bailey.
Hug Blayze.
Hug Luka.
Hug Brodie and Dale.
Go home and hug Mum, Phoenix and Zuke.
I lifted my hands and wiped under and around my eyes.
Luka's probably awake by now.
I can't show him that I'm an emotional mess.
Or Blayze.
I've already worried him enough.
My thoughts took Me back to the conversation I'd heard between Emma and 'Hunter' and I shuddered.
Two set's of bad news to fill Blayze in on...
"Excuse me?"
Somebody touched my shoulder and I squealed in surprise, spinning around to face a young man wearing blue scrubs.
He looked to be maybe my age, at most a year or two older.
He couldn't be a Doctor yet, but he was probably in medical school.
The guy's brown eyebrows scrunched together.
"You realise the whole Hospital is looking for you, right?"
He asked, brandishing his phone.
It had the same picture on it that I'd seen before.
This guy was looking at Me as though he wasn't sure if I was mentally all there.
I felt a blush warm my cheeks and dropped my gaze to the shiny but worn floor.
"Yeah, I'm going back now. I just... got lost."
It was embarrassing to pretend I'd been lost.
It would be worse to admit I'd had a mental break down and wandered around aimlessly.
The young Doctor guy nodded.
"Okay. Good."
He smiled.
"Good luck!"
He wished.
I raised a questioning eyebrow.
Has he met the no doubt furious Blayze among all this?
"Doctor Legend said there's this hell built dude who's about to punch through the walks if somebody doesn't find you!"
I almost laughed.
Almost.
But I couldn't manage it.
I managed a smile though and lifted my left hand to show him my ring.
"Yeah. That'd be my Fiancé."
"I'll leave ya to it then."
Doctor Student guy wished and turned on his heel to go the other way.
Sucking in a deep breath, my eyes feeling as rough as sand paper, I turned around as well and carefully pushed the door open.
Time to face Blayze.

I didn't have to look hard.
Doctor Legend appeared to be having an intense conversation with the ladies behind the Ward's desk.
Blayze was pacing the shiny floor, his phone clamped to his right ear and his derrière looking mouthwatering in his Bullzye jeans
Biting into my lower lip, I made my way forward.
"No, I don't need you to come here Jax!"
Blayze stated.
"There's nothin' you could do that I haven't already. And besides, I'm scarier than you anyway."
Blayze went quiet as he apparently listened to Jax's reply.
"And I already told you, I've spoken to her and she's on her way ba-"
He turned around, ready to walk back.
As I took in his hair that was even more disheveled than usual, his handsome but pinched with worry tanned face, his wide shoulders and the bands of muscle that made his arms so toned, my heart clenched painfully.
What if I didn't get to grow old seeing his beautiful face?
"Gotta go."
Blayze told Jax and pulled his phone from his ear, apparently not waiting for a response from his cousin.
"Hey Cowboy."
I whispered, taking a slow and careful step forward.
He pocketed his phone and quickly closed the space between us within a mere couple of steps, immediately reaching for Me.
My heart squeezed painfully as his hands gently cupped my face, his gaze searching mine.
"What the hell happened?"
He whispered, his eyes swooping over every inch of my face.
I opened my mouth to speak, but my throat closed up.
"I-"
I tried again, but couldn't get any further.
I hated lying to Blayze.
I wasn't good and it and I always struggled to.
But now was not the time to tell him about my recent discussion with Doctor Mercy.
I also had questions for him.
Or rather questions he needed to ask Emma.
Not that I wanted him being anywhere near her.
But she holds the answers.
I always knew she was trouble.
Blayze frowned at Me, his face filled with concern.
My heart squeezed painfully.
My throat burned.
Tear's welled in the back's of my eyes.
There was a lot to discuss and the emotions were bound to fly when we did, but right now I just wanted to hold him.
And I wanted him to hold Me.
I was desperate for him to hold Me.
"I f-freaked out."
My lower lip began to tremble and I bit into it, hoping to stop it.
"I th-thought I was c-coping, but..."
He squeezed his eyes shut and pulled me in against his body, wrapping his arms around my back.
I buried my face against his chest, my heart practically strangling Me from the inside out.
I opened my eyes wide, attempting to hold the flood back, but I didn't entirely succeed.
I could feel the warm tears rolling down my cheeks regardless and eventually soaking into Blayze's shirt.
Biting into my lower lip, I slipped my arms around his back and hugged him tight.
"You didn't take your phone... You scared the fucking shit outta Me!"
He whispered, tucking his chin on top of my head.
I don't deserve this guy...
I squeezed my eyes shut as even more tears flowed.