Love/Hate

7

Henry's POV:

I didn't know where Meriah went after that. Mike and Jared teased me for the entire day about what happened and it was torture. I hadn't seen her for the rest of the day. I saw her after school leaving, I debated with myself to maybe go say something to her but I knew she was pissed as hell. I knew what I did was an asshole move but why would she care if she doesn't even like me? She was with Jessica and Ellen and I knew they'd kill me if I went anywhere near them.

The next day I was hoping she'd come up me and say something but she didn't. She was literally pretending I didn't exist and it actually felt weird.

"She actually hasn't said a word to me." I said to them as I leaned on the side of Mike's car.
"Isn't that what you wanted? Be happy she truly has left you alone now."

"I dunno it's weird though. How she hasn't even looked at me."

I watched her from a distance going into school from going out some where.

"I don't think it's a big deal."

"Yeah you're right." I shrugged it off.

I knew what I did to her was wrong but I just agreed with Jared and Mike in the moment. It did feel really weird that she didn't talk or even look at me. It was a shitty thing to do and I felt bad. It made me feel like she hated me way more. Again I didn't have the balls to apologize, not saying that would automatically fix this but at least make it a bit better so Monday I had too.

On the weekend all I thought about was Meriah and this whole thing. I actually didn't like how she wasn't talking or even looking at me it was unsettling because it made me feel kinda bad. I was oddly tempted to text her but that makes me look like a pussy. I had to do it alone other wise her friends would kill me. I planned that I would text her to meet me in private so I could apologize for being an asshole without her friends being embarrassing.

Monday morning it was about 8:35 when I pulled up to school since I had the car that day. Just as I pulled in I saw Meriah getting out of her car walking into school with her purse around her arm and her gold hair bouncing on her shoulders with each step. I didn't want to do this but I had to. I would be the worst person in the world if I didn't, why was I making a big deal of this anyway.

"Hey... Meriah." I called her as I shut my door. I parked across from her. She turned around on her heal with her gold hair flipping to her back. She looked at me like I was the worst piece of shit she'd ever seen. She turned back around and kept walking.

"Meriah, look I get your mad, I just wanted to say sorry." She stopped and turned to me. I was only expecting worse.

"You used me," She said bitterly.

"You made me look like an idiot and front of your friends because you were embarassed to be associated with me. So I'm more than just mad Henry."

"I know. That was really shitty and I shouldn't have done that I-"

"Why were you so embarrassed of me that you had to lie to them about who you studied with? Is it because you're worried of what people would think? Or about the stupid rumors about us?! Or do you really just hate me that much?"

I didn't know what to say.

"I want the truth Henry."

Yes I was embarrassed but there's no way I could tell her that.

"I don't hate you, Meriah."

"Bullshit."

"I don't! But I understand if you hate me!"

"So answer my question then."

"Okay... I admit... I was a little embarrassed and I know that's horrible and what I did wasn't right. I'm a terrible guy and I'll never bother you again, I just wanted to say that I'm sorry I... hurt you." I said sincerely.

I waited for her to rage but she didn't.

"Okay." She said looking down. "I have to go." She said turning away.

I really did feel bad she looked like she was about to cry. Although I felt better that I had apologized and that she had somewhat forgave me, I still felt shitty about myself because even though I don't like her... I made a girl cry.