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eddie started a private chat with richie.

eddie:
richie

richie:
eddie if this is about us getting back together i don't want to hear it

eddie:
just hear me out please

richie:
eddie

eddie:
you're scared that i'll leave you for ellie right?

richie:
eddie stop

eddie:
just tell me yes or no

you're scared i'll leave you for ellie right?

richie:
i

yes

eddie:
i've cut off all contact with her

deleted her contact

blocked all her social media

she told me to never text her again and i did the same

she's completely out of this picture

richie:
what's the point of this

eddie:
you're scared that my homophobic parents will get in the way, right?

that i'll be so scared of them i'll try to act straight and disregard your feelings?

richie:
eddie what the hell

eddie:
richie

richie:
yes okay

eddie:
they know. i told them im in love with you, im gay, and there's nothing they can do to change that

when my mom told me i can't come home until i'm straight, i told her i'm not coming home until she's accepting

bills family has a guest room and said i can move in with them and stay as long as i need

my mom isn't going to mess anything else up

richie:
eddie please

eddie:
you're scared that i'm scared, aren't you?

you're scared that i'm going to let fear take me over and ruin what we have?

richie:
Yes.

eddie:
richie

i can swear to you

i've never felt a greater fear than the one i get when i feel like i've lost you

you are my priority always

i love you and nothing will ever change that

screw my fear

the only thing im scared of at this point is losing you forever

richie:
eddie

i told you

i can't do this

im never able to tell if you're going to follow up with your promises

actions speak louder than words

i can't just forgive you immediately

i can't drop everything without giving myself time

eddie:
that's okay richie

you can take as much time as you need

hours

days

weeks

months

years

i am here always

and i am never ever giving up on you

because i strongly believe that we're soulmates

and i will work so fucking hard to make up for what i've done.

there is no way i'm leaving you again

so when you are ready, i'll be here.

im not going anywhere.

ever.

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im sorry i didn't update again yesterday i went to this play at my school and then when i got home i passed out

thank you for 12.5k i love u