Musical One-Shot Book

I Deserve To Burn

       The heat surrounds me while screams of terror flood my ears. I'm not moving. I wanted to do this, it was my decision. I sit on the floor hugging my knees rocking back and forth waiting for the flames to consume my body. I wish this death was painless. Actually no. I deserve this I've ruined lives by having them take the SQUIP. I'm the monster. Tears stream down my face as I hear shrieks of both pain and fear upstairs. Why couldn't I have done this at my house that would've been a better option. No one would've cared, no one would've been there anyway.
      
       I look up at the top of the stairs and see the door. I could run for it and make it out on time if I really wanted to. But I'm the conflict and the resolution is to get rid of me. I hope Jake got out in time. I hope he isn't hurt. I would never forgive myself for hurting him. After knowing Jake for a while I've developed a small crush on him.
      
       I hear a bang snapping me out of thought and stand up. "RICH!?!?!" I look up and see no other than Jake Dillanger. "I-I'm so s-so sor-ry" I squeak out. "It's ok Rich. Let's just get you out of here." He takes a couple of steps forward while I take steps back. "N-no!! You need to leave I need to stay here!! I deserve to burn you don't. I've hurt so many people and you never hurt anyone so leave." I shout hoping he'll leave. "Leave...please..." He walks towards me and kneels down. I'm too weak to move. He picks me up and throws me over his shoulder. As he's walking, well he was actually running, away I stare at the spot I was previously at. I begin to kick and try to wiggle out of his grasp but he hold me tightly. "Let me go please Jake leave me to burn please..." "RICH SHUT UP OKAY!!! WE'RE GETTING OUT OF HERE TOGETHER!!"
      
       I follow his demands and shut up. I hear the jingle of the door knob. Looks like we're almost out the house. He sets me down and pushes me outside. I stumble before balances myself. I hear the cracking of wood followed by a piercing scream. Next thing I know Jake is covered by burning wood. "JAKE?!?!" I run back to the door and move away the wood crushing him. "Sir, we need you to move." "NO I NEED TO MAKE SURE HE'S OKAY!!!!" "Sir move out the way or we'll be forced to drag you away." "DO NOT TELL ME I CAN AND CAN NOT DO!!! HE'S MY BEST FRIEND I CAN DO WHAT EVER THE HELL I WANT!!!" I feel a strong grip on my shoulder forcefully pulling me away. This bitch is not take me away from Jake. I bite down and their hand and run towards Jake.
     
       They grab my leg once more and drag me away. I kick and yell at them to let me go. I see two paramedics place Jake on a stretcher. "JAKE!!!!!" I kick the man in the nose and run towards Jake once more. I push the two paramedics to the side and clutch onto Jake like there's not tomorrow. I start sobbing pathetically. "I'm sorry Jake...I'm so fucking sorry...this is all my fault..." They pry me off of Jake and pull him into the ambulance. They slam the door in my face and drive off.
      
       Another paramedic walked up to me and helped me into another ambulance. Throughout the whole ride I can't help but think about Jake. Why did he save me? "I seen everything, you must be really close to him." The nurse said sweetly. "Yeah, he's my best friend-well was my best friend." "Why's that?" "I'm the one who started the fire..." "Oh. How come?" I wince. "I'd rather not talk about it." "That's ok. I'm sure you had a explainable reason." She talks to me through the entire ride to the hospital. Once we reach it she leads me to a room and tells me to rest. I obey as she says and lay down. I begin to feel my eyes heaven. I close my eyes and let take sleep over.

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A/N I feel like this was really bad but oh well if you want me to continue if anyone ever reads this. Thanks for reading if you do!!