Default Troubles

Wrong

"Chara don't do anything stupid, ok?" all you hear is a fuzzy 'ok' and suddenly your legs are carrying you out of the car and up to the restaurant with everyone else. You follow behind Chara, just wanting to get this over with, and sit down at a table with them as others, including Mrs. Toriel and Mr. Dreemurr, gather at the table as well. After everyone gets here and three other tables have been adjoined to yours, a waiter comes up and asks for drink orders, you ask for a Pepsi and go back to getting into fuzzy conversations that your not really sure even happened. You get your drink, and when they ask for your food order you mentally panic. You didn't think of what you wanted to eat, eventually the waitress gets to you.

"What would you like, uh, sir?" I quickly nod and scan the menu , picking the first appetizing thing you read.

"Uh, i would like the..Black and Bleu burger, please."

"ok, thank you" Once she moves onto someone else you let out a massive sigh and you slouch in your chair. You feel a little better once your food gets here, you eat a couple of bites and then ask to get a to-go-box, you pack all your extra food into it then shut it, your stomach very upset. The acid arises into your throat then goes back down, a foul look on your face. Asriel, who has been watching you this whole time, taps you on the shoulder. Startled, you jump and quickly look at him.

"What is it?"

"Are you ok, you don't look so good."

"i'm just a little anxious, it's fine" Suddenly you're standing up, everything just a blur as your feet carry you outside and you gasp for air. You can't breathe and tears spill over the corner of your eyes as strangers give you looks of unease. You hear running footsteps behind you and you turn around to see Asriel.

"What's wrong!?"

"I need to go home, I'm sorry"

"We can go home early, I'll go get Chara!" and with that he was running back to the restaurant. You stumble to the car and lean on it, wiping tears away from your eyes and taking deep breaths. Eventually Asriel arrives with an annoyed Chara. Well, until he sees you, a frown appears on his face as he walks up to you and asks what's wrong. You reply with the same thing.
"I just need to go home, ok?"

"Oh, ok"

We get into the car and Asriel starts it up, you rest your head in your hand and look out the window. you start to day dream about shopping again, but this time it's enjoyable. you're a girl and you're picking out feminine looking clothing along with jewelry and make up. Suddenly a intense feeling surrounds you, you feel like something is off, how wonderful it would be if you were born female. Once again, tears spill over your eyes and you silently cry as Chara and Asriel are in the front have a conversation. you can't be seen in public like this, you can't be in public looking like a boy. you..you have to come out to everyone at some point, just not right now, not today. you won't for as long as you can keep it a secret. you can't even think about transition, it's all too much.

  Sooner than expected you get home, you wipe your eyes and open the car door to get out. you grab the keys from Asriel's hands and run to the front door, unlocking it and barging in. You drop the keys on the counter near the front door and run to your room, closing and locking the door. After a while of calming down you get into pajamas and hop into bed, already exhausted. Tomorrow you have to go grocery shopping with Chara..great. You don't want to go out into public like this..Suddenly an idea pops into your mind. A wig. You can order a wig then wear it while alone, or maybe come up with an excuse with the others. Yeah, you'll do that tomorrow, though. Drifting off to sleep, you wonder what hell you've welcomed in now that you have accepted who you are.

  The sun blares into my eyes, making me open them then quickly look away. You sit up in bed, yawing and stretching your arms. Maybe today will be better, it has to be. Standing up and shuffling your way to your closet, you pick out something you probably shouldn't have, leggings with shorts. You bought these leggings a while ago and stumbled your way up to the check-out, spatting out quickly that they were "for my sister." Yeah, great excuse. You put on the leggings and shorts, quickly putting on a sweater also. After getting dressed you put on your boots and leave your room and tread into the living room. Chara also comes out and raises his eyebrows, confused.