the house is quiet except for the sound of the running water from my shower. it's scalding but i don't care. it burns my skin and i like it. i scrub my skin raw. i try to wash out all the months of addiction and numb pain.
but i can't.
and it hurts.
i get out of the shower and pull on some old ratty clothes, not caring about my appearance. ashton won't see me.
ashton doesn't want to see me.
but i love him.
i love him so much that i fall asleep on is side of the bed, holding onto his pillow which barely smells like him anymore.
he's fading.
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fade ; afi+lrh
Fanfiction"what fades must come back." >> this book was written before the song 'if you don't know' was released, but seems to be closely related. disclaimer: i wrote this in 2014. it's really bad. also the picture used in the cover was created by me and repo...