when i get back home, the flat is empty except for ashton.
he's showering and doesn't hear me come in. so i sit down outside of the bathroom door and listen.
he's singing.
and it's beautiful.
but then he stops.
i get up to leave before he catches me. he'd probably think i was a creep.
although, he probably wouldn't stop cuddling with me. or being whatever we are.
i don't fucking know what we are anymore.
we're best friends. that keep secrets. and cuddle at night. and do other things that may include kiss.
i haven't told michael or calum about us kissing.
michael would kill me.
calum would tell me i'd mess up.
i know, such lovely friends i have.
but they're protecting ashton.
ashton walks into the room with his boxers on and a towel around his shoulders. "hi," he says.
"hey," i reply.
we stay silent as he gets dressed. i don't watch. i stare at the ground.
when he sits on the bed, he pulls my chin up and kisses me softly. i kiss back, knowing he'll taste the smoke.
and he does. he pulls away and leaves the room.
and i'm stuck here with my guilt.
i take out my phone and put jacks number in. i don't know why. but i do.
he doesn't need me to talk to him.
i need him to talk to me.
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Fanfiction"what fades must come back." >> this book was written before the song 'if you don't know' was released, but seems to be closely related. disclaimer: i wrote this in 2014. it's really bad. also the picture used in the cover was created by me and repo...