Emotionless And Full Of Emotions

emotionaless but yet full of emotions

For once in my life my brain is silence. There are no thoughts I should be thinking of. No wispers in the back of my ears. Just silence. I can feel the vibrations through out my whole body. The coldness without goosebumps. The increase of my breath every time I say I am okay. I try to decrease my breathing. I start by holding my breath then letting go automatically. I stare out and look at my untouched wall. The pictures of the people that i used to be friends with, the Fresh coat of blue paint, and the inspirational quotes that aren't so inspirational anymore. for about 20 seconds all of my thoughts and destruction memories go away. I look at peace but yet I feel the stress throughout my whole body. Then everything washes over me like the ocean over broken glass in sand, waiting for someone to walk in and get hurt.